I log all activity on my phone calendar. If I look at P or PMO then I name the event PMO and use the red category. Amber days are if I MO (by myself) and I mark those days as amber because it is potentially a risk to lead to PMO via the rabbit hole. Green days is the sum of whats left. I also track SA days that involve my spouse - as in days since last O but it doesn't effect the counter and I only use that on my journal. As in, it's been 14 days no sex, no PMO, no MO...getting horny, need to be careful, etc. So even if I have had sex 100 times on green days it doesn't change the green days, however if I have sex and then MO or PMO, usually because of ED.PIED/ PA etc. then that day is red/amber accordingly. If I PMO and I MO(no P) on the same day that day also gets classified as a red day, the higher level of acting out for me that day. I have had a rough time of this, with 16 relapses, some multi-day obviously. Tracking that I have abstained from acting out for as many days as I have keeps me reminded that I am progressing. Being on day 1 or two is a tough place to be, but working on my 168th day of green makes it more of a self rewarding and satisfaction to make the better choice. Small victories are the way. Relapse is part of recovery. Our mindset determines our outcome. Keep your perspective positive
Day 2 of 43 (Streak was broken on July 13th, 2019) These streaks are hard as nails again. I tend to masturbate more when I stress, so I assume that's the cause. A new schoolyear did begin and due to corona I don't know what my teaching will look like yet. Plus my relationship recently ended and whilst I was the one getting out of it due to toxic behavior, I'm sure it's messing with me. I don't know, take it one hour at a time I suppose.
Hang in there. The first week is obviously the rough phase getting through the barrage of Mental images, thoughts, etc. You can do it.
Hello @MrHill, yes take it one day (indeed hour, if you really struggle with the urges) at a time. That's the only way. Wish you all the best with your studies.
That's smart. I like the idea of keeping track so thoroughly, if for no other reason than it can be encouraging to look back and see all the successes rather than focusing on the "failures," to realize that there's improvement over time. Congrats on 36 days so far, keep it going!
Day 1 of 43 (Streak was broken on July 13th, 2019) Even though I did not PMO, I am restarting my streak. I have not been in the right mindset and been mentally edging all of yesterday. This is not something I will accept for my own journey, even if it is not against the rules necessarily. Day 43, here we come again!
0/35 BTS My emotions got the best of me yesterday. No porn. Simply acting on attraction to my wife. No porn means I am stronger than the relapses before. Today is my day zero. My new goal is to beat 35 days, so *36 is the new goal.
106/111 6 more to beat my longest streak. Didn't get good sleep last night. Nocturnal emission occurred too. Saw a strange dream too. Nothing special.
26/90 @BrohkenCompass Sorry about the reset but congratulations on 36 days man! That's a really solid streak and I know you'll be back on track to bts again!