Today marks day 4 for me. I just did the calculation and my last streak, it turns out, was 42 days. I'm about 10% of the way back there and I feel strong. Slip ups happen, be kind to yourselves, kings. Fall down 7 times, get up 8. My realistic, obtainable goal, the carrot in front of the donkeys nose, is to not succumb to this by the end of the year. I have plans to spend the winter holidays with family, and I want them to see what a man I've become. What a man I can be. I want to reconnect with them. Be kind. Be present. Be a worthy child and sibling.
Day 75 just reached Emyn Muil and I'm starting to follow this character Gollum. This should go well.. :-D @RiseToGreatness I have made it to Warrior!
no bro. sorry, as for my knowledge, literature and personal experience, masturbation drains the life out of you. it´s not a good behaviour. plus, as an addict you will never have masturbation under control, soon you´ll start masturbation to fantasies. once fantasies kicks in, porn is one step away.
i feel you bro. sometimes life sucks, but the pain can also help us grow and become better. embrace the pain bro, go out for a walk, meditate, talk to your family, go out, do what you like , but don´t cover the pain man. pmo is not the answer.
One day done my brothers and sisters . Feeling good, no urges, no temptations to peak whatsoever. however i will not slack my reboot system based on my "experience" or "long streaks". i´m an addict so i must do my path like everybody else. humility is the key. Let´s welcome the new member of the Companion @Kemar935 The following members have upgraded and reach the following places on Middle Earth. Congratulations!!! @MarioVargas - Elf / Rivendell @Ashen One - Hobbit - Hobbiton @dandausa - Warrior - Emyn Muil here´s universal man on another installment of the sexual mastery series . have a great day!!!!
Unfortunately I relapsed today about an hour ago. I wasn't feeling bad. I just kinda let my guard down and let my curiosity take hold. I am applying for a new job already so I am hopeful that I will be quick to recuperate.
Day 27: I have been taking some time off between postings, because I do better in recovery when I’m not worrying about streaks, day counting, trying to crank out a journal entry, etc. I’ve been taking things one day at a time and focusing on recovery and repairing other aspects of my life. Today marks the longest I’ve ever been without P or M in 14 years. That’s crazy to me. Things are going well though. For the first time since I was a kid, I feel this weight lifted off my shoulders. I feel free. Going to continue to keep focused and determined. Can’t wait to reach Elf!
Day 3 Have a headache this evening, probably due to the near constant rain outside. I work up at 12:30PM today sleep almost 13 hours. Did not mean to do that, but the plan now is to get up at 6:30AM from now on (even on weekends) and work on schoolwork, with the intention of reading up on mathematics in my leisure time as I have collected 9 math textbooks from my house mate (and two biographies on mathematicians), having bought 4 of them off of him. He and I spend a lot of our quarantining together discussing mathematics, and he is trying to prove this really ol conjecture. I told him that Newton developed calculus during the plague, so he is in a similar situation and he can prove this conjecture during a different plague. He is elusive on his research, though I have tried to convince him to open up, alas, his advisor said to not tell anyone until he is finished. I have had few to no urges since I got back on the horse almost four days ago, so I am very happy about that. I just need to keep my mind on straight and make it through this weekend, since I binged last weekend. If I can make it to Tuesday, I will have remained clean for a week. So that is just three and a quarter days away. I am a little over half a week clean at this point, and I am happy by that, even if it is not all that impressive at the moment. Best, Mathman1994
Wishing everyone well! It’s so inspiring to read your posts everyday and see each of you striving to grow and become the best version of yourself possible. I’m proud of each of you for fighting the good fight and I know all of us have what it takes to live an incredible life! If we fall, then we pick ourselves back up, because it’s okay to lose some battles in the short run. We’re playing the long game and all that matters is that we keep on getting up so we can win the war! To Victory Brothers!