That's not nitpicky at all. Our words become us. We don't need pmo and we are former addicts. If we say it and believe it and act on it we will become it.
Saturday Hey gang, Woke up at 7:30 and feeling great. I only lounged around for about 20 min., then got to work. I'm a little frustrated with brain fog as I recommit to my research and writing, but that is my only gripe/observation. I am also currently reaping the psychological benefits of yesterday's workout. I've prayed a little today, and done some work. I need to meditate yet, and do more prayer and work. Today I will see some friends, which I am excited about.
Checking brave Fellowship!! Good day as i did and i´m still doing all the things that i plan for today. Unfortunatelly some urges are assaulting me now, much because a horror movie i saw some hours ago that was filled with triggers. so at this point i have a sense that i was fishing because i purposely pick a movie that i knew it had a big chance of cointaining triggers. the ridiculous part is that i don´t watch the triggering scenes, i fast foward them, but the initial shock is enough to put me off balance. so today, i saw the tremendous stupidy and danger of what i´m doing so i will not watch any kind of movies that i know that have triggers on it, or watch any unknown movies with probable triggers. i will leave those movies for some time later (at least after 3 months) when i´m feeling more grounded. in fact maybe those movies will not appeal to me anymore in the future, who knows? but for the time being, no way that i´ll put myself again in sensitive situations like that. it´s just plain stupid. it´s fishing. to make things worst, my wife left with the kids to the park earlier than i expected, which put my plan in jeopardy, and now i´m home alone with eletronic devices. but once i check with you brotherhood, i will leave the house as planned but first, here´s today report Let´s welcome our new members: @Green Boy @Aimingbest And our returned brother: @bmcmanansmith . Welcome back bro!!! The following members have upgraded and reach places in Middle Earth. You rock!!! @frosties @Themomentum @Rubzi - Uruk-Hai @Cartographer - Hobbit / Hobbiton (Good luck bro!!! ) @Revanthegrey - Pass of Caradhras / Misty Mountains @LuckyMan - Dwarf / Moria @HE^MAN - Stairs of Cirith Ungol / Minas Morgul A wave of support to our brothers in struggle @Slider8 @OttarrTheVendelCrow . Hang in there my brothers. The fellowship is with you!!!! Have a great day my brothers and sisters . Love you all!!! "Gandalf: Theoden king stands alone. Eomer: Not alone. Rohirrim! Theoden: Eomer! Eomer: TO THE KING!!!"
Day 0 - Relapsed three times in the last week. I am starting my "Longterm counter" over to try to motivate myself toward a better life. I was reading about the Atlanta murders, and the kid's motives disturbed me enough, especially since I struggle with sexually compulsive behaviors, but I take responsibility for my actions, and I do not blame porn stars and attractive women for my actions. My actions are my own and I would be a weaker man than I already am if I chose to blame women and the media for my own failings. With that said, I was upset enough, that I made the decision to relapse instead of facing the feelings I was encountering from my anger over this kid not taking responsibility for his own failings. We are stronger than we realize, and when we relapse, we chose to do that. We may have been incredibly vulnerable in a moment and relapse may have seemed easy, but if that was the case, we chose to take the easy way out. Well from now on, I refuse to take the easy way out. I may have certain weaknesses, but porn is not one of them. Porn is a choice. Fapping is a choice, and three times in the last week, I chose to do it. No more! Best, Mathman1994
Day 109. Definitely one of the most emotionally trying days in my reset today. Work overflowed into my weekend and things became very tense. I hardly slept and had to work into the morning. These are small tribulations compared to what others suffer through. I am grateful for that. This has been a very difficult week for me in my reset.
Yeah NO PMO for now but once i find a girl who is emotionally connected to me than will do only NO PM. I am not returning to the same life again. Day 251
Day 8 complete! @Slider8 I'm praying for you, brother. Hang in there. You're always someone we can count on to give us excellent advice. What do you gain from relapsing? Nothing. If you wake up in the middle of the night with urges again, talk to the Lord and remember the words of Psalm 121: 3 He will not let your foot slip— he who watches over you will not slumber; 4 indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. 5 The Lord watches over you— the Lord is your shade at your right hand; 6 the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night.
