The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

Day 207 free of MO. 279 free of Porn.

Looking back at my notes, of my first days of journaling, really is a great reminder that I have made progress in my life. Even though it may not be where I want to be right now, I've changed a lot in these 9 going on 10 months. I'm really excited to see the growth in the next 3 months.

I encourage you all to journal every day.

Stay strong my friends.

 

Day 181&182

 

Checking in. Facing some strong urges at the moment, but did a hard workout and cold shower, and prepping a healthy dinner, and now feeling much stronger. Reminding myself that the 2-week hump is real and I'm closing in on that. Be well everyone.

 

3 days

 

392 days

 

Day 24... Been very depressed, but maintaining my streak is my top priority so no matter how I slip, I won't let myself slip there.

 

Day 3, first challenge

Lest night I wasn’t horny or something like that. I just had an itch and I was not calm. It was okay but I ended up feeling a little down because of it.

In addition, I had a couple consoling session, and it was focused on sex, porn and masturbation. So what @garmenclyde is saying is really relevant to me as wall.

Me and my girlfriend have been together for almost 8 years, and in that time I have put a lot of pressure over the years for her to be more sexual, that pressure only hurt us and for the past month or so we have not have sex and it really made us much better friends and in the session she talked about how much more relaxed and free she is feeling. Now that she knows that if I give her a kiss / hug / massages then I am just doing it to show affection and not as a “move”.

But then we’ve started talking about the no masturbation part of nofap, and the therapist really emphasized (and my girlfriend agreed) that when I decided not to Masturbate and only focused all of my sensual energy on her, I am still putting a huge amount of pressure on her. He’s analogy compered it to food that even if a couple is really close, there is something hard and emotionally stressful if one partner can only eat his meals with the other partner. Also, it made a really strong connection between my NoFap journey and our sex life.

And my girlfriend really agreed with everything that he said. That it’s too much pressure for me to put all of my sexual energy on her and that it’s just a turn of for her, and that the change that she want me to do in my life would be to learn to masturbate without porn. And that this is the only way out of the bad cycle that we have entered.

So, now I’m not sure what to do. I don’t want to leave this community, you guys are my heroes. But just like @garmenclyde, I'm not really sure why not doing M. that is a real question for anyone who could answer it. I’ve read “your brain on porn” and watched lots of videos but I’m still not sure why removing M would do me any good (especially when I’m not trying to remove sex itself)

Have a great day everyone

 

76 days.

Played football and worked a lot. Slightly stressed/nervous about a few things, which can trigger urges, but managed to keep them under control.

 

DAY 16 MONDAY Today i have experienced the third Nocturnal emission , 3rd wet dream in this 16 days streak.
Last was on day 14th.

 

Day 5, i think

Been very busy in my life right now, can't keep track

But hey at least im not a nazgul

 

398 days dwarf king
474 days no PMO, semen retention

 

Day 175 no PMO. Woke up feeling hopeful. My wife has been teaching the preschool kids at church and yesterday’s lesson was “don’t worry… God has a plan” which I think is true and has helped me over the past few days.

 

Day 02 has just been as easy as day 01. The main difference to days I've had struggled and failed in the past is, that I'd been in a really good mood the past two days. I just felt happy and uplifted. As long as I don't "need" something to make myself feel better, it's easy to keep everything under control. I know the real challenge starts as soon as I have days where I feel emotionally or physically down. That's when the addiction starts crawling up and when I need to proof strength and determination. I'll become an Elf in 28 days. I'm not gonna mess this up!

 

day 40- elf

 

Day 46
Feeling well but little weak, as today I had nocturnal emission so become little after that but not more weaker as in starting days of my rebooting, it means my rebooting process working on its way. I think it is due to weakening of whole body due to more time passed in PMO so now getting back my energy naturally but of course it will take time as it is slow process. BTW negligible urges today I think it is also due to wet dream, but wet dream causes brain power low and it also affects whole body so its frequency must be reduced.

 

Day one !

Guys you are all so strong, I'm impressed !
This will be a long journey, but I like the concept, it's trying to make the thing fun ^^