Porn, masturbating, over-ejaculating.These things have been killing my morals, my manliness, my emotions, my love for people, and most importantly... My relationship with God. After I have succeeded on nofap, I now feel more love. Love for God, love for my family, love for people. And now, I am having the desire to get married. My religion prevents me from committing fornication, and getting a girlfriend. Even if I wasn't a Muslim, I wouldn't have done these things. I just want to get married, marriage is way more beautiful that these dumb "relationships" Marriage contains responsibility, it's between the souls. Getting a girlfriend? Nah. True love is marriage, not getting a girl/boyfriend. Marriage is about commitment, it's about responsibility. Although I am 15, I want to get married. But I won't (yet). I'll get married as soon as I have a source of income. Maybe, I need to know more people. College contains all kinds of people, I'll get to know a woman during it. Only with her parents' permission. During my prayers, I ask God to help me marry a sweet woman. And I say woman, because I think it's more respectful than saying "girl". And we Muslim men, respect women more than ourselves.
A week or more. I have been trying to stay close to God as much as possible. I go to the mosque to memorize Quran, I recite daily, I spend most of my praying time in sujood reciting Dua like: "Oh Allah make me close to you, make me close to my family, help me get a lovely spouse in the future, grow my knowledge and health, help me serve the world with knowledge." And sujood impacts me a lot, I am very calm most of the time. My dua is getting accepted a bit by bit. People actually treat me better. Alhamdulilah. It's one of the best weeks in my life.