Day 1 I guess so lol. Yes @CosmeFulanito time to protect your streak now. Let's go buddies. How many times will I fall? We we will see. Let's do this Hard Mode once more. I have a requirement for myself to reach which is at least 20 - 30+ days. Let's go fellow Jedis. Practice makes perfect. Keep Training
Day 2 I was also thinking. Maybe my working at the gym played a role as well. Yes, I worked out at the gym recently a few days ago. Before relapsed, I think my libido increased afterwards. I felt it too during and after I finished. I wasn't even training Legs that day. Odd I guess it was during that day before relapse. It is what it is. Let's go Jedis. This scene made me laugh when I first saw this in theaters and it still does. Vader out. Keep Training
Day 37 checking in! A couple of attacks have appeared, but it will take a lot more than that to stop my streak, I keep going
day 9✅ i didnt write in a whie so im going to write about the lasts day. the last saturday night i beat my kryptonite alcohol and a night out. i guess i didnt feel lonely like other times and i when the urge came i thinked about the long term and i could dominate the beast like the photo. this gave a push for this journey. i think when you pass this obstacles everything becomes easier. right now i think i will focus on getting rid off this cellphone overuse and going hard to the gym. will write again like this tomorrow. like a journal like lloyd does.
Day 38 checking in! Let's keep moving forward, every step we take will bring us closer to victory. Today has been one of the most stressful days I've had in months, to the point where I ended up with a headache, and while a part of me wanted to go back to the old useless habits, another part of me was still ready for the fight and reminded myself over and over again that pornography was only going to make everything worse, so in the end I decided to do some breathing exercises and remember that in the end everything would end up being resolved well, so it was not worth continuing to stress. My streak is still intact, I still feel a little stressed but a lot better than I did in the afternoon, and I definitely feel a lot better than I would if I was back on porn. Every day can be a struggle, but at the same time, every day we have the opportunity to win. Let's continue our training, without fear, without doubt.
Day 0 & 1. Checking in. Day 1 - Youngling In dedication to Angel., this what I would show if he was still here. It's only a little blood. More like it's only a little peek to P-sub/P for me then this happens to start from there eventually if I can't control it. Because in Hard mode if you look at P then "It is a reset. Rules are rules". But I didn't even touch yourself. Right. What the F. What the crap I mean. Excuse my language fellow Jedis. I am practicing to keep my speech clean as much as possible. One tip, your tongue is not clean then that will also affect your PMO journey fellow Jedis. If you didn't know. It's a spiritual thing that will affect your PMO journey just as drinking Alcohol for example. Angel. I hope he is well. I would feel bad but I wouldn't judge and say crap to him because it is difficult the more and more you fall. Twilight New Moon: Jasper Cullens. This not a concept I would use but ok. Not a super fan but it was interesting. Vampires, hmm I guess so. That is why it is Vader time for me when tempted by the darkside. JEDI KNIGHT knows about this too. Damn, it's just a no P rule for me and still need to overcome this. Good thing over here P-subs are allowed but still discouraged here in this challenge. I can practice over here. But P-subs has gotten a lot better over time but it still there for me. And I relapsed. Because peeking in P. I know I can do no MO longer than this no P rule crap! I had the urge to resist 100% (MO) but you know since we are in Hard mode. In my mind, time for a full relapse since I am looking at P intentionally. I guess I will share this. I was saying to myself "Who is that P star again??" Oh crap. It starts there. Too much curiosity in the mind with that. Then there you go. I go all in instead of keeping my Semen Retention/NoFap streak while on Hard mode. Coming back because I'm still not done. I think made one slight mistake as well. I still need to at least fulfill my requirements here as I said in previous post in Hard mode first before deciding to give this a break from it. @JEDI KNIGHT That is a good idea. It will help if you need it but not mandatory if you don't want to journal. As a friend over here said, it is a foundation to getting a higher streak. For me, I decided to do it because it keeps me accountable to myself and track my progress on days. That is my main priority here beside Challenges in this NoFap journey. It does help me stay on track and it is helpful to me. Again. Keep training
Day 8 check in! I got through the day. I didn’t notice any urges showing up, but I did have some thoughts show up that if I let stay around to king could have led to urges. I haven’t hit the withdrawal symptoms yet, and I don’t know when they will show up, but I’m going to keep moving forward! I’ve discover that meditation has been really beneficial to me these last couple of days allowing me to recenter my mind and stay focused on the task at hand. Day 9 here I come!
I’m sorry if this doesn’t belong here, but I thought that I would ask it because this community seems to be very helpful. I’m finding myself struggling with needed constant reassurance from my wife. It’s not only about the no PM area, but in many different areas in our relationship. Does anyone else struggle with this or have any advice for me? She’s very supportive and does give me the reassurance, but I can tell at times that it does bother her.
