The Jedi Temple (open)

Day 9

 

day 9✅

i didnt write in a whie so im going to write about the lasts day. the last saturday night i beat my kryptonite alcohol and a night out. i guess i didnt feel lonely like other times and i when the urge came i thinked about the long term and i could dominate the beast like the photo. this gave a push for this journey. i think when you pass this obstacles everything becomes easier.
right now i think i will focus on getting rid off this cellphone overuse and going hard to the gym.
will write again like this tomorrow. like a journal like lloyd does.

 

Day 38 checking in!

Let's keep moving forward, every step we take will bring us closer to victory.

Today has been one of the most stressful days I've had in months, to the point where I ended up with a headache, and while a part of me wanted to go back to the old useless habits, another part of me was still ready for the fight and reminded myself over and over again that pornography was only going to make everything worse, so in the end I decided to do some breathing exercises and remember that in the end everything would end up being resolved well, so it was not worth continuing to stress.

My streak is still intact, I still feel a little stressed but a lot better than I did in the afternoon, and I definitely feel a lot better than I would if I was back on porn.

Every day can be a struggle, but at the same time, every day we have the opportunity to win.

Let's continue our training, without fear, without doubt.

 

Day 0 & 1. Checking in.

Day 1 - Youngling


In dedication to Angel., this what I would show if he was still here. It's only a little blood. More like it's only a little peek to P-sub/P for me then this happens to start from there eventually if I can't control it. Because in Hard mode if you look at P then "It is a reset. Rules are rules". But I didn't even touch yourself. Right. What the F. What the crap I mean. Excuse my language fellow Jedis. I am practicing to keep my speech clean as much as possible. One tip, your tongue is not clean then that will also affect your PMO journey fellow Jedis. If you didn't know. It's a spiritual thing that will affect your PMO journey just as drinking Alcohol for example. Angel. I hope he is well. I would feel bad but I wouldn't judge and say crap to him because it is difficult the more and more you fall.
Twilight New Moon: Jasper Cullens. This not a concept I would use but ok. Not a super fan but it was interesting. Vampires, hmm I guess so.


That is why it is Vader time for me when tempted by the darkside. JEDI KNIGHT knows about this too. Damn, it's just a no P rule for me and still need to overcome this. Good thing over here P-subs are allowed but still discouraged here in this challenge. I can practice over here. But P-subs has gotten a lot better over time but it still there for me.

And I relapsed. Because peeking in P. I know I can do no MO longer than this no P rule crap! I had the urge to resist 100% (MO) but you know since we are in Hard mode. In my mind, time for a full relapse since I am looking at P intentionally.

I guess I will share this. I was saying to myself "Who is that P star again??" Oh crap. It starts there. Too much curiosity in the mind with that. Then there you go. I go all in instead of keeping my Semen Retention/NoFap streak while on Hard mode. Coming back because I'm still not done. I think made one slight mistake as well. I still need to at least fulfill my requirements here as I said in previous post in Hard mode first before deciding to give this a break from it.

@JEDI KNIGHT That is a good idea. It will help if you need it but not mandatory if you don't want to journal. As a friend over here said, it is a foundation to getting a higher streak. For me, I decided to do it because it keeps me accountable to myself and track my progress on days. That is my main priority here beside Challenges in this NoFap journey. It does help me stay on track and it is helpful to me.

Again.
Keep training

 

Day 8 check in!

I got through the day. I didn’t notice any urges showing up, but I did have some thoughts show up that if I let stay around to king could have led to urges. I haven’t hit the withdrawal symptoms yet, and I don’t know when they will show up, but I’m going to keep moving forward! I’ve discover that meditation has been really beneficial to me these last couple of days allowing me to recenter my mind and stay focused on the task at hand. Day 9 here I come!

 

Day 5: Youngling

 

I’m sorry if this doesn’t belong here, but I thought that I would ask it because this community seems to be very helpful. I’m finding myself struggling with needed constant reassurance from my wife. It’s not only about the no PM area, but in many different areas in our relationship. Does anyone else struggle with this or have any advice for me? She’s very supportive and does give me the reassurance, but I can tell at times that it does bother her.

 

Day 10

Some good reading in here. I don't really have much to add. I'm battling everyday against the dopamine urges. I've already had two wet dreams, which shows my body needs to get used to not releasing, but the texture of my penis is already changing thanks to not masturbating. The skin is tougher. I think the fish oil was the cause of my wet dreams (megadosing), so I'm taking it in the mornings instead of evenings, which should stop them.

 

I had one pretty explicit dream of myself, it was saucy
Joke aside i didnt knew the brain would be so obsessed to regenerate that dopamine, even through nightdream. I wouldnt explain it in any other way.

 

im sorry jedi i never had a relationship like that. maybe in reddit if you look for key words like marriage or something someone have a good answer or here in this page if you search.

day 10✅
feeling a void lately. i guess you all now what i mean. but i hasnt happen me in a long time. not food or tv or cell or even good things kill it. im not depressed like i was a year ago im very happy with life but sometimes im bored by the routine. i think i have to change that. my biggest desires are a relationship with a woman and an own buisness i will work for that



"always remember your focus determines
your reality" Master qui gonn.

 

Thank you for sharing your opinion with us.

Success in your training, the key is always to stand up and keep trying, little by little you will get better and eventually you will achieve it.

Everyone must think about what the parameters or limits will be to maintain the streak.

In my case, the hard mode is actually the easiest, because without exception each and every time I've peeked I've lost either that same day or at most a day or two later.

If you decide to keep seeing p subs it is your decision, I really hope that the method works for you, however, if you allow me to give you some friendly advice, I see that as self-sabotage, since from the point of view of dopamine, for the brain there is no difference between watching p sub or explicit pornography, the amount of dopamine released is identical and the effects that occur in the brain and the body are also identical.

If you spend 90 days doing MO but not P you will notice some changes and improvements, but if you go 90 days doing P but not MO, you will not notice any change or improvements, and in fact, some symptoms may have worsened, for example, that you have become immune to that amount of dopamine, so you must see increasingly strange or degrading content to feel the same level of pleasure.

I know it's different, but imagine an alcoholic decides he won't drink beer anymore, but continues to drink wine, has he really stopped being an alcoholic? Similarly, if someone wants to stop watching P, but continues to watch P-subs, have they really beaten porn?

Sorry for this unsolicited opinion, but believe me I do it with the best intentions because I want to see you succeed not only in this streak, but in your life in general, I hope you achieve all your goals.

Keep moving forward, never give up.

 

Day 39 checking in!

Stressful and tiring day in the morning, but in the afternoon things started to pick up, and even though I had a couple of really strong attacks, I forced myself to think about other things, focused on my goals, and managed to keep my streak going.

I don't know if it's true or not, but I notice more attention from women towards me, on several occasions I've noticed girls staring at me while I'm walking down the street.

Today a girl I know asked me out in the morning, she totally took me by surprise, but I had to finish some urgent paperwork and I couldn't waste a second, so I had to say no, but I invited her to dinner this Friday and she agreed, I feel totally different than I did at the beginning of the year, it's been a long road to get here, but this has only just begun, I will continue my training

 

Day 2

Yes CosmeFulanito, I understand I know what you mean. I'm going to try to keep this brief. I don't understand this whole justification with as long as you avoid P as long as possible but touching yourself is ok. Where is the logic in that? And the P-subs I have gotten better on my side. As I said and it is getting better and under control. Here in this challenge it is strongly discouraged here but I were to go back to one of my previous challenge that I did then it can only be 5 - 10 mins of looking at P-subs. Then looking and peeking a couple times on P-subs is a reset. Um what? Again I can avoid 100% with no MO if I was only doing Semen Retention. The P thing will take time for me. Obviously, since we are in Hard Mode I can't look at it at all. I don't look at it but sometimes I do come across unintentionally I can't control that. Just again in my opinion, it's not much as bad even if you were to fall for the trap on long at it let's say 10 - 20 mins looking at P. But still resisted to not MO during that sound much better. Obviously, whether we are in Hard Mode or not; we have to avoid P or P related content because it must be remove completely eventually in this journey. Lastly, MO doesn't make any sense at all. I have a rant with that. If people say looking at P is bad, to me MO or M or edging it is just as the same if not even more pathetic without P. Just saying my opinion. I hope your success with your streak as well too. Thank you and just my thoughts fellow Jedi. That's it.

This scenario if they showed Vader doing the deed to the Younglings (killing). Yes, I think I remember playing this mod in the past. I loved that game. I might rethink to download it because playing this mod was fun.

Vader out
Keep training

 

Day 0
My favourite youtuber just posted a 100 days challenge. Which includes just having the same routine for 100 days. Just working like a robot. And also not working till failure. Just working 80% and not 100%, in this way we will last for more days in the long run and not need a lot of rest. I think this challenge is really interesting and the perfect solution to my problems. I think I will focus on this instead of nofap and let nofap happen on its own because fapping is not in my routine.
Good luck fellow aspirants on your respective journeys.

 

Day 9 check in!
Made it through yesterday. Was a little bit of a rougher day not so much with the urges or thoughts just more with drama that’s going on in my life. I’m trying to stay positive and not dwell on the negative as to not activate the thoughts or urges to escape. Day 10 here I come.

 

Day 1 completed

 

Day 6

 

That's my problem as well. Whatever I'm doing to fill the huge gap from no PMO, I just find it so boring. I guess that's the price we pay for healing our dopamine receptors. Thankfully, I still remember the joy I experienced as a child and early teens when I read a book, a Sudoku, or even eating a meal. They were joyous experiences. Now, there's no spark, or colour in anything. It's boring, and I'm having to force myself to do these other activities.

However long it takes to heal these pesky dopamine receptors, we're just going to have suffer until they regenerate.

 

Day 11

 

Day 40 checking in!

Relatively quiet day, making some preparations, this Sunday I'm going on vacation to Spain for the next few weeks, in theory I hope to have internet wherever I go, and I hope to be able to continue connecting to the forum every day, but if I disappear for several weeks at least now you will know why, but whether I connect or not, I can assure you that I will continue to do my best every day.