Post published by Nwmat1138

Just wanted to share something with everyone. I split with my gf of 18 years at the end of oct due to a lot of factors namely my porn and sissy addiction. I ended up moving out on my own. Since then i've battled the problem and only managing streaks of up to 7 days Max. Tonight I saw her at our house where she still is and we talked about a few things and we ended up cuddling which led to other things. I felt apprehensive as I know i'm pretty broken right now but went with it. Needless to say I didn't maintain anything like an effective erection to have meaningfull sex which as i'm sure some of you have experienced is soul destroying. We ended up doing other things so that we could both o together. I think tho after this it's left me so far from where I want to be and realising that I may never get back to where I feel I should be. I'm only on day 2 of yet another streak and maybe that's why but not too long ago I could maintain my porn addiction and continue to have sex with ease and yet it seems impossible. I realise I am by no way healed and maybe that's why I still can't perform how I want to...but it's just so scary to think things might not improve...thanks for listening