Recent content by ARL1989

Feeling good because things are coming together. ❤️

I hear you completely, as said in another post, there is a lot not said that added to the frustration and fighting and I am not condoning my decisions and mistakes. I am merely basing my feelings on times where everything was great and I didn't watch porn as often as when things were bad, I can...

Let me put the entire story into context. We started dating - (I already had a PA), sex was great because we were great, (I began having PIED and or no ejaculation) the issues start with the fights because he feels I'm not sexually attracted to him, the fighting causes me to not want to be...

HI Nicko Stretch, I guess a little bit of both but when writing the thread it is in the context of my PA addiction. The best way to describe it is we were both continuing a vicious cycle of hurting each other where all that needed to happen was the PA needed to end. Like any addiction, I...

Day 4. What a lovely way to end the weekend, I'm lounging on my bed, listening to some good old music on the radio, played some games together on my phone, something we enjoyed doing when we started dating. It was the best weekend I've had in 3 weeks, since beginning my new job, my only...

I am on day 3 or 4 depending on the technicalities of Whether or not you count the intercourse I had with my partner, my problem with pornography was a childish issue that psychologically, unconsciously I would get angry with my partner due to the fighting of other circumstances we were facing...

Day 3 - Its day 3 and I still haven't had the urge to revert back to my old ways, I have no sexual cravings what so ever. I am hurt and broken by the situation of I'm trying and I really am trying but I have no support from my PARTNER, the past is still being thrown in my face and I want to put...

Thanks so much for the words of encouragement, I have really zoomed out on my life and have realized I am a very ugly person due to my addiction. I am so moved by my actions that I almost want to jump the gun and be at the already cured point. Not that I want to skip the process, I'm just...

I am so depressed today, I am so sorry for what I did, I wish I could take back the last 18 months of destruction and replace it with all the love and care I do have for my partner. I was so blinded by the addiction that I pushed the 1 person so far that I feel like he has given up on me. I...

My partner and I have been dating for a little over 2 years now (my story is available if you wish to read it) and I am now completely open and honest about my porn addiction and the discovery or my ED (PIED). We are now in the early stages where he is still very hurt by the fact I have taken so...

Thank you so much for the response and the resources, I am 100% dedicated to this and really want to fix myself and my relationship. If I've learnt anything in the last 24 hours, it's been a very repetitive problem, blaming each other, (me looking for excuses) and it's a cycle I want to and need...

Day 2/90 is almost done and dusted, I have so much remorse for the damage done to my relationship, I am so upset with myself for the hurt I caused that I am committed to this.

Just need 1 more chance...

Hello I am a 30 year old male from Port Elizabeth, South Africa. I have been struggling with porn addiction for as long as I can remember, it started as my crutch to deal with being gay and daily bullying in school. As time went by I eventually gave up fighting my porn addiction - (my only...