ryan23

But yeah, not trying to down play it. But also need to know what is acceptable and what isn't. It used to be fapping which was unacceptable. I am just not convinced lately and see no harm and the chatting and things. Though I know it's probably not good....:/

To clarify, I do see harm with fapping, and sometimes even with the chatting. I just get lonely and like the attention. I just hate beating myself up over it.

You are extremely strong Ryan.

Amen.

its basically like a just dont thing.. just avoid talking to women, delete the apps you sext on..talk more to the same gender.

Thank you my friend. I’m doing the best I can. Fighting a battle worth fighting. Prayers are appreciated. You hang in there too.

Cheers man! And to you as well.

Out of the dark cave

Out of the hole

I know the feeling...but we won’t get better until we do.

But It will be worth it. You let go move on so you can move forward, have better life

I haven't been looking at "porn", but in a way I guess I have. And it's making me more likely and greater urges to go look at porn. I know I'm pushing it lately, it's something hard to escape from. Especially since I have not much experience in this realm, and have had a couple people who've wanted to engage in conversations and photos with me. It's fun, but in actuality it's all PMO.

I feel a bit out of control with it lately, like I don't have a strong enough desire to stop. I like the validation, I like the conversation, I like what I can imagine, and sometimes see. Thanks for hearing me out.

And obsession with their own genitalia. Porn eh.

We're all trying our best, I get it.

I’ve noticed as well.

Met with a leader from a SAA group today, who is like a mentor/sponsor for me. That was really helpful to share my concerns and what is on my mind.

My reset didn't involve pornography but I started "M" in my car, just through my pants, (still wrong, I know), as a girl was bending over vacuuming in tights. I kept staring and I stopped, "M" for about 15 seconds and then the "O" happened. Shouldn't have put myself in the situation in the first place.

So from now on, going to be much more aware of my thoughts. I believe overconfidence let me to this point. I had many days I went to vacuum out my care, and the "O" was bound to happen eventually.

Cheers man. Things haven't been easy lately.

Sure man! Shoot..

Very true. There's a lot of aspects I've gotten better at such as avoiding pornography. Does this deserve a reset in your oppinion?

I think so, if it gave you that dopamine release, then yeah it's a relapse. It's up to you, tho. If you feel like you did before, then you might be ok. If so, oh well. Happens to a lot of us. :)

I've decided I'm not going to count this as a relapse. With the situation and how I don't feel like it was a total relapse, I'm going to carry on with my streak and hopefully avoid trying to listen more than I should have next time.

So I keep myself very busy. But sometimes I feel like I'm missing what I'm supposed to be doing. Or some girl I'm supposed to meet.