I went five days, relapsed. I went another five days, relapsed. Ten days left of 2019. Resolved to finish the year strong.
OK, I'm back after a couple of slips. Sorry about the delay in the ranking update. Hope everyone is doing well.
Just logging in for another counter reset coincidentally done right before Christmas Eve officially started. 48 hours to start is the new streak is what I want for Christmas.
Checking in ! For this Christmas I want for all to remember the truth about Christmas. Is not about santas' gifts or being good and naughty. Is about God, coming as a man being tempted just like we are but without falling into temptations to show us that IN HIM we can be free from this. Is not magically that we change, being a christian is not about being some kind untouchable man. But is about growing as a man to get to be like Jesus by living through His Word one day at a time. We only fall because we don't want to listen to the Lord and follow His ways, or because we think we know better. I am myself on the process of being free after long time of slavery and sin. It's when we forget that is Christmas not Xmas, don't cross out Christ of your Christmas. The man has put Christ on a cross before, but He came to be on that cross for you, and to make you free through His death. Don't forget Him on this special night. This night is about God reaching to us, He came not for the saints, but to make saints of the sinners. So if you think your bad... He is here FOR YOU, to help you, to be right there with you in the middle of the storm and calm it down. Matthew 9.11-13 says : And when the Pharisees saw this, they said to his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?” But when he heard it, he said, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. Go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, and not sacrifice.’ For I came not to call the righteous, but sinners.” To night at dinner let's all have a prayer focusing on the freedom that we can have in Christ. And let us all ask God to come to our lives. Then let's ask for each others life, for His mercy and love to strengthen us. I will. God bless you all and Merry Christmas !
It's amazing some of the wise tidbits you can pick up from unexpected places. Took the kids to see Frozen II, picked this up: "Just do the next right thing." This is mantra-worthy.
Checking in. I have found myself really losing my way here. Not in the sense that I'm relapsing constantly. In fact, I'm getting a 1 week or two in between, sometimes more, which I know isn't good, but I've been far worse. It's my anxiety. It's been through the roof. Hopefully with a few days off from work I can breath again. This was the busiest Christmas season I've ever had, and the messiest my mind has been. Screw the New Year resolution. It starts now! I know how good it feels to go a meaningful, lengthy period of time without the p and m, and my brain was cleared of the fog and social anxiety was manageable. I need that again in a big way. I leave for vacation in exactly one month. I think that's a good starting point. I'm sure my time with my family will be much more meaningful with a clearer head! Anyway, I hope everyone has a safe, blessed Christmas!
Merry Christmas all! Dodged a bullet yesterday but remain steadfast in my recovery. Have a great one gents!
9 days in feeling okay but urges are creeping in. Promised myself NoFap over Christmas, trying to keep strong. Merry Christmas one and all. God bless
Saw Star Wars today - plenty of life affirming positive quotes in it which I hoped I would be able to remember for just this occasion. I can't. Anyway Christmas Eve check in and all looking good at the moment. Stay safe over the next few days people! Happy Christmas!
Woah, what a busy few days with two little kids and my very hormonal wife. Funny thing - I love all of them and feel so close to them. Perfect love casts out imperfection. Feeling exhausted but positive! Merry Christmas! ps. Something I really identify with from Russell brand: When the “King” (higher self) is born it will not be in a “Palace” (material wealth) but in a “stable” (humility). Happy Christmas.
Congrats on your 180 Timber! I'm sure it feels like a 180 degree change. The only problem with that is.. if you keep going and double it, then you will be at 360 degrees, which would mean you're back where you first started....