I think you should start getting serious about your relapses ... Finding out purpose of your life and work on it ...
Day 25 - I think I may have some 'cheat codes' to cracking PMO. I am reading the book Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Joe Dispenza and I have to say it has some very interesting insights. I now understand how emotions are formed in the body and how 'memorized' negative emotions are the cause of so many addictions. I understand how the body can overrule the mind and one becomes stuck in an addiction despite the best intentions to quit. Understanding this is key to breaking compulsive habits I believe. It is all so beautifully explained from a scientific perspective in addition to the unconventional insights Dr Dispenza adds. Thanks @Caleb 2020 for helping me discover this guy.
I am happy to see that i could spread the knowledge that was effective for me and those information you mentioned helped me as you exactly said it, when you become aware that how this body works you can change it conveniently and quickly. there are also some good clip about how we can control our subconcioius mind by Dr Bruce Lipton. you can find them, that video opened my eyes in a way that i think we have power to change ourselves in a very short amount of time. i put the link below my friend.
in this era of your life that your body is addicted to the wrong stuff these thoughts are coming into your mind because your body is addicted to the hormones that is released just by fantasizing or seeing the girls ,your body bring that thought in an unconcious manner, you just need to intentionally turn the thoughts in your mind into sth productive after a while +90 or so your body will brings you the thoughts you fed it.(good ones)but there will be mood swinging and bad flatlines,so prepare yourself for them.
learn and write them i have wrote more than seventy pages. about the pros and cons about the healthy persons quality of breathing and thinking and the one who his body is addicted compare them think about the best version of yourself every day ,every second your body will ct accordingly i said it because i did it,experience it i had terrible times but now i reach a bit good level of stabilized body and mind
Day 25/ I woke up a 5:30 did exercise read educational stuff. in the last two minute the craving was tense but i think the willpower does'nt work one needs to improve the level of understanding about this addiction . now i know the things that are very interesting to me about sexaual things are not real and are not healthy those are a product and demands of brain that have changed in its structure,and this brain seek wrong things and look at the wrong things as normal despite the fact that i myself fucking know they are(fantasies and porn)so addictive . and i know another important thing that our brain capability of understanding have diminished and have decreased.. but i do things base on the schedule that i have devised for preparing myselef for a academic exam and i do have plans even for my minutes of daily life it has changed me in a good way plus i do meditate and imagine the best version of myself every night before sleeping well,i think i have changed because i feel different than the three weeks ago by the way my best version have a bentely new continental. what a prestigious car it is.
Thanks for the link. You are a life saver brother. Keep it coming. Wisdom (knowledge in action) is what will save us.
The thoughts that I am getting are random not only of girls ... The problem is I get is I get entangled in those ... This makes me stuck ...
I'm on day 91 of 365 going to 180 first then 275 / on abstinence contract hardmode pmo with my wife, God's decision and my wife's choice is when we will resume sex. Have a bit of a headache this morning I take Gaba Chasta tree for libido reduction Focus Factor three times a day except for chaste tree. It really helps me stabilize doesn't make me go one way or the other especially I work my way off of antidepressants doing this for anybody out there would that struggle also off of ADHD meds which is a big plus my penis size has doubled very pleased with the results will continue boner woke me up pointed to the coffee machine and here we are good morning all
Day 2 completed Woke up at 10:30 Had a good time on my Xbox. Went through a book on automobile engg. Youtube Exercise for 15 minutes. Watched the movie ->"The Sweet Life" FIFA Is there to keep me busy Argentina vs Croatia yet to come. All the best for everyone on this challenge!!