Day 2 check in. To help me in this fight I will employ another psychological tactic which is giving myself a reward after attaining each rank of Jedi. I will coincide this with no more buying alcohol, and the money that I would have used on alcohol I will instead buy something else that I enjoy for my reward, something that is not an unhealthy habit. I really like music played from vinyl so I will get the Beethoven symphonies collection after I reach Jedi Knight rank. And after Padawan I'll going down to the used record store to get a couple of records for a few bucks.
On Saturday when I become Padawan I will go down to the used record store to get some cheap records as a reward. I will hold myself to this promise. I swear I will focus and concentrate on making it to Saturday.
It really is, so much of our life is just about habit and routine. A + B = C. A is me, B is stress and then C of course is porn use. The more we break off that B variable the easier it gets to avoid C or porn. We learn from every setback and make adjustments. We keep moving forward for as along as it takes.
Day 5 check in. Understanding what is and is not in my control is important. Needless stress comes from trying to control something I actually can't control. I don't have any responsibility or guilt in how other people behave or think.
Day 6 check in. I might be doing better this time around from focusing on rewarding myself for completing nofap goals. I would want to say that having other healthy activities to do is helping, although I've done that before and I would relapse frequently, so I don't know if I can say that that essentially helps or not. I think for me it's been more about removing my bad habits of thinking that caused me unneeded stress which was a trigger for pmo urges.
Yes as painful as every setback is there is something to be learned from them. There's an adjustment or change I can make every time if I just sit down and think about why I relapsed. And then take the steps to remove those conditions that made me relapse.
I didn't realize until now that I joined nofap.com just before this group started off. I will take that as a sign that I am meant to be here in this groups to learn what I need to learn. I have been here for nearly three years now. That is quite long enough for me. I mean quite long enough struggling and failing to stop my pmo addiction. I am stopping it now. Here is to ranking up. When I wake up in the morning I will be a Jedi Padawan.