Reset yesterday on day 6. The average time my streaks last is gradually getting longer. This may be what progress looks like for me.
@Martial - Congratulations on your 60 days as of yesterday! You have received the 60 Day Heavy Lifter Award . Thanks for being part of the group.
@lytnin88 and @mukmewx - You have been added to the member ranking. Welcome to the group and good luck in your recovery efforts.
1 week check in. Am in such a better spot than a week ago. At the same time one week feels insignificant since i've been here 100 times before. But, it's a milestone that needs to be met in order to get further ahead. So with that, back to real life and prioritizing my reboot!
10 Days. I haven't noticed a flatline yet but I may not have been off the wagon long enough for it to take effect. I'm definitely noticing some more depression this past week, but also think that is environmental--wildfires in my area are keeping us all stuck inside and stir crazy. Regardless, I'm staying on guard and vigilant, because this addiction loves to kick me when I'm down. Be well everyone.
Much appreciated @artifact and thanks as always for all your hard work in organising the group. It’s been an interesting journey, not to minimise how hard it can be sometimes, but the last 3-4 weeks things have got a lot easier- fewer urges and easier to sidestep them. However, there’s no doubt the price of success here is eternal vigilance. Good luck everyone in your efforts!
Thanks for allowing me to join. Today was a good day. Day 7. Got noticed by a couple of ladies, which is nice. No strong urges today. But yesterday I found myself slipping into a fantasy. (So easy for me to do.)
Checking in on day 13. It's a lonely week for me with my son gone, wildfires keeping the trails closed, and my closest friends out of town. Not feeling safe from urges at the moment, but I have my guitar, my dog, and good work to do so will be focusing on that and taking as many cold showers as I need to.
In good news got another 10 days, coming on the back of 11 days, so overall that is not bad. On the other hand, here we are again. Looking forward to feeling miserable the first 3 days and having severe anxiety the next 7, ha! Ok it's not always that bad, but still. The circumstance was once again a miserable night of sleep because one of the kids is a little sick. Being tired just puts me on autopilot. The common denominator in each of the relapses from the last 2 months is that I set out to go get some work done, I log in to my pc, and then.....autopilot takes over and i just look up something related. Something to make the pain go away, to take the edge off. Not porn of course, just some innocent fishing. Just for 5 minutes of course.....
Reset again today. I have been here before, only lasting a few days before going back to zero. This time I want to post every day to help get started.
Checking in. Got very close to falling just now, but luckily enough of my brain was intact to walk away. Took my dog out to throw the ball and now meeting a friend. Scary close call, but I think I'll make it to two weeks tomorrow.