Day 9 done. Yesterday was a good day. I was able to keep my mind disciplined and didn't pursue any fantasies or urges. Hoping to get established with a few more days of this.
64/90. Some days are difficult. But instead of escaping them, I am trying to use those times to mature into a better person. I have failed at times in the past, but I have not given up. So today once again I choose to move forward as best I can.
My experience is that most of the addiction comes, because we can't give ourself the positive feelings and want them from outside. Meditation or self praise can help to get it from inside.
@Bijuu107 I think you make some very valid points. I however think it's a number of things. Not just Lack of validation. Lack of fulfilment, excitement, meaning and security to just name a few. I do agree totally with your suggestion that one needs to find validation and happiness from within though.
Hi. It's been a while I left. Ofcourse i was failing during this time. Infact everyday I failed. Well I decided to come back. Day 0. Hell yaaa.
Day 3 done. Had one of the hardest night so far last night. Couldn't stop thinking about porn and escorts, and my brain was telling me to get up from bed and look up escorts on the computer. I keep on battling with myself to seperate the escort addiction (which I also regard as of porn) from the porn addiction so I can engage in my escort addiction freely, but Its a terrible idea and I always eventually end up watching 'full porn'. Anyway, I managed to sleep through it and didn't feel the intense urges in the morning. My other issue right now is that of productivity which I'm lacking right now. I'm falling behind my studies.
DIA 3!!!! Voy muy bien!! Hubieron momentos hasta ahora en los que casi no lo logro pero pude seguir hasta ahoraaa estoy muy feliz, pero sigamos así. SI PUEDO, VAMOS POR EL DÍA 4
