I relapsed again, but I kind of feel like it bled together with the first one. I have a new perspective on this now because I had an honest conversation with my girlfriend about my issue for the first time where we discussed how this has been a habit of mine for a very long time. Then we listed the reasons why I should stop doing this and I think that is a big deal and an important to step on the path to real recovery. I am going to make a post on this site every single day to keep myself accountable throughout this journey. I also notice that this is not a battle to be taken in days a time, but rather is a fight in a more minute by minute constant alertness mentality.
I'm sad to hear that you have relapsed, but pleased to see that you have learned something from your relapse. It's good that you've talked about your issue with your girlfriend, because it helps to get another persons perspective on the problem and support. Try creating a journal in the journal section, where you can post your daily updates. It helps keeping all together in one place. My last suggestion is to start practicing mindful meditation. This will help you learn how to watch your urges and not react on them plus give an increase of grey matter in the brain and more willpower.
