Day 1, 5 hrs Orc Checking in. Solid day so far. Right now got hit with an urge. Making the difficult but necessary choice.
Good night, companions! I had a nice sunday, rested well and went out with some friends. I'm full of hope, though I've been really tempted lately. Wish you all a great week!
Day 3 complete! Good times--spent all morning at church helping with each of the services, solid run of about six miles in the early afternoon, and after dinner I walked around the neighborhood for a while to soak up the evening sunlight. If you're having trouble with mood, or motivation, or constant urges, or energy or whatever--get outside! This is something I had to learn the hard way in my own life, but it's very true. Stick to that ideal! "Casual dating" is practically an oxymoron the way I see it. St. Gianna Molla, pray for us!
Day 4 complete A great weekend with friends and family. My goal is to protect myself from the little urges, like checking out women and to find a daily inspiration like a book or a youtube chanel with advice for life.
I messed up last night. To make a short story shorter, i stumbled upon some P while cleaning out my drive yesterday. And, unfortunately, I looked at it. Yes I deleted it, but after looking at it for some time. And that counts as a "flat on my face" fall. I should have torn myself away immediately but I did not. At least not fast enough. It's disheartening to restart this challenge, especially when I'm 17 days successful, my longest streak, but those are the rules I have chosen to live by, so here we go again. I am very proud of my progress and I am not demoralized, just determined to do it better this time. Day 0 as an Nazgul starts now!
1 Day 15 hrs Procrastinating the gym today. Pretty early still. Got out of bed. Slipping into the usual touching self unconsciously. Prevented it and starting my day. Will be looking for a job later. Wish me luck.
Day 0 again ... Damn I had too much work the last days and (due to a medicine deposure) rly bad and view hours sleep last relapse was very short and not even enjoyable... so rly not necessary again Need to get back on track now and report back daily (here) Greets
yes, you´re right. porn subs is widely known as porn substitutes. but of course, not all people know this, or need to know this. I will correct that in the front thread. Thank you
Checking in brothers!! Another hot spring day today. this week i´m on vacations, but i´m still being productive and active. Feeling good . Some temptations for lust today, but i´m on my guard. Brothers, following the relapse of @a_unique_user i want to remind everyone: if you have any porn/erotic/sexy material stored anywhere, please delete it. as long as you keep something with you, you´re keeping the flame alive. plus, it might happen, like it happened to @a_unique_user , that you unexpectably stumble across that forgotten sexy material and that might cause you to relapse. And has we know, it doesn´t take much to fall, especially in the early stages of the reboot. So, take a few seconds to brainstorm your life, seek and destroy Thank you!
Day 8! Middle urges yestarday, I was alone almost all day, so that didn't help. I manage them with nofap videos I did't slept well, so I didn't worked out. I'm stress for some job issues but I will try to finish them today. keep strong my brothers.
Day 20. During my initial reboot, the streak seemed to accumulate quickly and the days flew by, every one a new discovery. After resetting almost three weeks ago, this streak seems to be taking forever to build. Everything feels like a trudge over muddy ground I have already trod. I really admire those of you in this fellowship who have reset their counters many times yet keep taking up the challenge--it is hard walking the early path over again. I felt a little under the weather this morning and decided to go back to bed and try to sleep it off. That worked and I'm heading to the office today to get as much done as I can. The downside was that in my fitful sleep this morning, I had a barrage of arousing dreams. Not much that was explicit or erotic, but I have that blue ball feeling from an extended arousal that did not end in release, and that post-illness heaviness combined with post-arousal fog. These feelings weigh on my like the one ring weighed on Frodo, and I am grateful for this challenge providing me with a simple analogy and example to hold onto on a day like this. Carrying on through the dark!
