Okay! Day 1! I am with this on my mind - Previous mindset: "Lack of a father is the root to watch porn, I am a victim"; New mindset: "Lack of a father made me what I am today! no more victim!"
I tried this challenge the last time a month ago. Broke no PMO at around Day20. It was due to an incident that made me stressed up and I felt like I had to release my emotions my masturbating. It's been a month since then, and I can't even keep up my streak for a week. I keep telling myself that "I would stop fapping after today" or "today would be the last one", but I would end up doing it all over again after a few days. It came to my realization that I not only had an addiction to masturbation, but also porn, and porn is actually the reason why I masturbate. I watch porn during my free time, just like movies, it's just like a hobby, a way of getting my mind off things. But I know it's going to lead me to masturbate and it would a huge waste of time. The primitive desire inside me grows stronger each time I succumb to it. But I've made a resolve, I'll treat the 30 days challenge seriously this time. I'll exercise or meditate when I'm bored or stressed, or read a book, do something productive. And to anyone out there that's facing the same problem, let us brace ourselves and control our desires. Be the master of ourselves. Day 1, officially starts today.
Check in day 14 of this challenge, went through a bad day yesterday but woke up feeling much better today, onwards and upwards, keep going everybody
Ok I'm in I got almost 2 weeks no pm and just threw it away. Quit exercising, reading, walking, all the things that helped. Quit logging in here. Now I can't go a day again. Lesson learned.