Check In Day 1(46) Hello Spartans, Been low key for a few days. Very ill and some family members were very ill so I was focused on all of that being up all night sleeping middle of the day. Today I am almost recovered. I also installed Instagram a few days ago. It’s a mixed bag for me. It’s inspiring to see other fitness people posting their workouts and results. It’s also a lot of hot fitness chicks which is a massive trigger for me. I noticed how after only a few days I was already back to checking every few minutes to see what’s new. See new posts. Looking there instead of being focused on my life and what I’m doing and what I want. I deleted the damn thing a few hours ago out of frustration. I also noticed that it feels like... it’s like... instead of facing the fact that there’s things in my own life I don’t like, and things I want to change... things that might require months or years of effort... it’s so easy when I have that impulse to just open the app and see someone else being happy, successful, winning, crushing it. And I get that it can be motivating but I also see how it can become the same things as watching television for hours a day. It becomes about being a ‘watcher’ or a consumer instead of putting time and energy into becoming more of the kind of person I want to become. I become a follower of a bunch of other people and their lives instead of a creator of my own life. Anyways I deleted that damn app after like four days of having it back. It’s a shame. I really would like to make some content and meet people that way but clearly I need to reboot from social media for a bit longer. I hope everyone is doing well. I’m going to get some sleep and finish recovering from this flu. And tomorrow I’m going to wake up and kick down the door of life. A-Hoo!
day 40 God give me another chance to finish my delayed project when i do this journey i really really feel like i became a luckier person,,, thank's to god, keep strong fellow sparta
Day (1)65 Productivity and isolation are quiet different, still I am finding a way to do both, find a work to do early this morning then before lunch I went running, in the afternoon I have a MOOC to follow so you know at least today is full of good things.
Battling a cold, which I very rarely ever get. For the first time in years I called in sick at work today. I am convinced that quitting alprazolam somehow invites flu-like symptoms. Anyway I am actually looking forward to resting today and maybe even getting some things done. Have a great day Spartans!
Check in day 34. I think I have more testosterone in my body than ever before. It's empowering, but also makes me more abrasive. The other day I was getting upset and wanted to lashout, but bit my tongue. Trying to workout more to release this built up tension in my body.
Good on you for deleting that filthy app. It's hell incarnate. Don't let it trick you again. Also did you know Facebook owns Instagram now? Yeah, they are trying to take over the freaking world. Do you have a Facebook? If so disable it. It's also a time waster and has no benefit unless you own a business.
I left all social media several years ago due to the nature of my work, which gave me a lot of insight into what these platforms are capable of. I set up a quasi-anonymous Instagram account a little while ago for the sole purpose of seeing what other fitness geeks like myself are up to. What I came to see over time was that I used it as a p-sub as well. That’s when I deleted the app and it was the smartest thing I did for my reboot!
Check In Day 1(47) Hello Spartans, It’s been a frustrating five days for my project. Zero work done. One interruption and obstacle after another. And tomorrow will be the same. All I can do is focus on my blessings. And be prepared for the moment when I have removed all the obstacles to my work. If you have been in a long and difficult period in your life. Months. Or years like me. Don’t quit. Even if there is nothing that looks remotely like success around you. Do not quit. No matter the outcome, of you refuse to quit you will be a champion. Stay strong Spartans!
Day 75 *Appears out of nowhere...Spears several enemies...disperses fearful opponents.. nods head toward fellow Spartans.. disappears again until needed most*
After 9 days without porn, i lost yesterday with 2 ejaculation one after another in the period of 1 hour , followed by Watching Porn for 2 hour. Then went to play badminton for 2 hours and ended my day with 5 km . walk . Well yesterday started as a blessing , I woke up at 4:00 am naturally without any alarm , made some target/plans/to do things for yesterday . Went to 12 kms cycling and came back at 6:00 am . At 6:15 am , here in my city at that time temp is around 10 or 11 degree, i Took Cold water bath , felt amazing after taking it and was full of energy , started following/ executing my plan but after some time felt tired and went to sleep , slept till 1 pm had skipped breakfast due to sleep therefore had lunch and then done nothing , wasted my time on my phone looking at some new but majorly old videos in Youtube just to kill time , then in the evening i was home alone , a thought came in like its been 9 days since you have not watched any porn nor fapped you deserve a scene today , i took actions on that thought and followed in 2 hours of porn with 2 ejaculations . So pretty fucked up i am i think and my mind too , after that fun the same mind was showering me with the thoughts of guilt and shame , the fucking same mind , what is wrong with me man , If i knew that this kind of a point can come up in my life i would have cut my internet connection just after when i watched porn for the first time . It is making me shallow and i am really not working on my goals , feeling to quit this site too because i am still losing the battle , i came up to this site so that i can get a reboot but i have not made up any progress till now . What should i do ?