still you wander off the forum a long time. maybe that also contribute to the relapse. brother, you know it´s essencial to keep accountability, it increases your determination and responsability. Just a piece of advice.
those excuses of the mind are very common, lot´s of brothers go through it. i did, lot´s of times . a good way to start the streak is to realize, the longer you stay in pmo, the harder will be the withdrawal. another way to start is to realize that pmo today will ruin your day even further, and so on.
Day 0. Came very close to falling again today which I've detailed in my journal and also a little bit earlier on here but I haven't PMOd since last night. Losing my best streak in almost two months like that kind of fucked me about a little, but there's nothing I can do now besides build a new one. And it's not about the streak! I'm forgetting that. It's about living an abstinent lifestyle and treating every day the same. Day 0 is the same as day 9 is the same as day 365.
Feeling energized? That's nice. How about playing "Energize"? In order to be a dancer, you have to dance. After all, you did say that "I got be the dancer" lol Just messing around with your words ("I got be the dancer to dance,"). But seriously tho, there's a song called "Energize". Hope you like it, it's a banger:
I fell today. I looked where I wasn’t supposed to and fell into temptation. This was the longest I’d made it in a while but I ready to get on up again. No more screwing around. No shame. Start me at 0 today.
Day 5 Simple day today, played a really fun game. If you're interested, here's the link: https://woolly-walrus-games.itch.io/beat-blast-alpha-2 Cya around, and go have fun. Distract yourself from pmo. Once again, I'm going to be a Uruk-Hai tomorrow.
Sorry for your reset agressiveturtle, but I'm really liking your determination to start again strong! Congratulations on the longest streak you've had in a while.
Fell again. What am I doing wrong? I need a new system for dealing with urges because my old one is clearly not working. I managed to brute force my way through tons of urges yesterday but I was so exhausted that I gave in at the first urge today. Maybe I need to figure out why I'm having so many urges in the first place and fix it?
Sorry for your reset Gorgewalker. You mentioned being exhausted; are you familiar with the acronym H.A.L.T.S as it relates to recovery from addictions? It's about how we're more susceptible to giving into triggers when we're in a weakened state and being aware of this can help us to be extra vigilant when we know we're vulnerable. The acronym stands for Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired, and Stressed. These altered or weakened states can take us out of our armor or the momentum of our streak we've built up. Out of all of these states, for me, being tired or the combination of being tired and stressed are the most dangerous so I understand your challenge. When I've been awake too long or when I'm just waking in the morning and maybe didn't' get enough sleep, in those moments I tend to forget how important the streak is and what I've been working so hard for all this time. It's hard to give good advice for times when you find yourself in a H.A.L.T.S. situation, I'd say to just double down your efforts, realize you're in a vulnerable state and toughen your resolve. Find something constructive to do, or try to be around people or text a friend. Remind yourself in no uncertain terms why you're abstaining. Think back to how bad you felt when you felt so trapped by PMO and how good you felt when you decided that enough is enough. Amp up those feelings so they're not just a memory but rather a new decision that you're making again right now and in each new moment. Also, try your best to avoid getting into H.A.L.T. in the first place. Make sure you're eating nutritiously every day. Do your best to get the right amount of rest each day. Take time to reach out to friends. Take some time for mindful meditation to deal with anger and stress. Plan for how to deal with the hard times before they happen and, if possible, avoid them altogether by keeping yourself as mentally and physically healthy as possible so you don't have to rely on brute force which can only take you so far when you're exhausted, stressed, etc.
i wanted to reply to your yesterday brother but didn´t have the time. Yes, the chaser effect is very real. We must be very alert after sex, on the next hours and days, because the urges for pmo will be very alive and kicking.
Perfectly said brother. Forget records, we´re not here to make a record, that´s food for the ego. If we think like that soon will fall again because we´re not really rebooting, we´re just abstaining for a while. We´re here to overcome the addiction!! to learn to live a life free from pmo. Your mindset is perfect my brother. Let´s go!!!
Excellent brother. You´ve entered Moria, the fallen kingdom under the mountain. Beware for the porn forces are strong in the deep places of the world.