So I’m back now hopefully to stay, I relapsed like... 10 times in the past two days. After it happened the first time I kind of just didn’t care... I’m back to being depressed, But I really want to get back on a streak. I feel so much Better when I’m not a slave to my impulses. Day 0 checking in.
Hi guys, I relapsed 2day but I am not discouraged at all. The reason is bc this is the first relapse ever where I did not orgasm. Usually when I relapse I PMO but 2day it was just PM. I am also encouraged bc I know I won't binge. I haven't binged in a very long time. this week I have been making great strides in the gym, with my daily reading and meditation. I have been more social and have done more activities outside the house than I normally do. My habits are changes for the better which is the most important thing. It's not always about how many days you go in a row that shows how well you progress. But anyways I'm getting right back on the horse!!! Day 0 March 8th = 21 days!
On day 19 right now. Still no urges. Had some spurts of desire to watch porn though but so far easy to ignore. Fantasies still high, trying to no indulge in them but no successfully haha. Gonna try more. Had a sexual dream tonight, no wet dream though. Challenge 91% complete! SPARTAAAA!!!!
So today reached Day 4 yesterday was a the evening really hard for me, the weekend will be also hard because of i just dont have lot to do and most time i will be alone in the flat. I will do my best to not thing about it and keep strong.
Make some things to do. Get out of the flat. Go for a walk, run, coffee, museum, gallery. Go to a friends house. Go visit family. Keep busy!
21/21 ***Challenge accomplished successfully.*** Hope you all make it too. Stay positive. Stay strong. And make some changes in your life in order to succeed. See you in the next challenges.
Day 1. I have completed up to ten days so far but been on a bender since new year's. Ready to start again. Here we go. I am treating this like my life is on the line, because technically it is. Porn and masturbation serves no purpose in my life except to drain my life force, and hinder all creative functions and relationships. Good riddance! Today begins a new journey of freedom.
Day 9 Last couple of days i have felt good, so i am making sure to keep up the good habits for when the hard days come - and they will come haha.