Day 6. Good day today. Had a lot of trouble dealing with a problem down below this morning but it passed with out any use of PMO. I was very proud of myself for not giving in but what meant so much more was that my SO said she was proud of me as well. That gives me so much strength to keep going. When we find something like that to drive us in the right direction we can not hesitate, Embrace it and drive on.
Bloody hell relapsed today at day 49 ! It was so silly literally few minutes, absolutely not worth it . Back to day 0 ♂️
63 days. who would have thought. loving life and loving being PMO free and I set a wedding date! Im stoked! 63 down 27 more to go!
20days of many days. don't wanna just set a target. just in case when i reach day 90, i would tell myself, hey you did it ! what kind of reward you want? and then everything goes to shit again... i wanna quit for good...its a bad habit, i should quit, i know its hard, and my porn brain is saying there is no point of this, but i still want to try and get over it. I'm sure by not doing PMO, I'm not missing much of good stuffs in life.
Day 3 of 90 Feeling a bit down this morning, last night ended in a fight, with her telling me I should never be married, I should be on my own because I am selfish, I only care about myself, that I do not know how to love anyone. Then my wife tucking herself in the blanket up tight no place to snuggle, she does not want to be close after a fight and going to bed, I'm doing good in my path of recovery, just struggling with the problems in our marriage caused by me. Feeling boredom lately, lack of motivation, I skipped work on Friday, just did not feel like going in, so now I have to play catch up this coming week, oh well' * 57 days free
So did you learn anything from the relapse, what you need to do differently on this 90 days to make it thru? Good luck, stay strong, we need to learn from our mistakes!
Today, Day 1 of my journey begins! I am excited to finally change my life for the better and already feel full of engery. Have a great day, everyone!
Good because pretty much by default when you're watching porn you're sacrificing many other things in your life. Happy to see you're working through this. The hardest thing for me has been convincing myself to accept those stories without listening to them.
Day 14 - Today was one of the hardest days of the challenge, was masturbating while beeing in a sleep state. It's defenitely annoying, but my unconcious took over and I had very little concious control over it. I am not satisfied with my day, cause I've wasted my time surfing the web and didn't do what I wanted to do in terms of goals. But I will continue to pursue greatness in my life. Tomorrow can be different. #hardtimes