Day 21 as Padawan. I have been having a lot more anxiety in the past 3 days than before. I even am feeling nauseous. I know that some guys have attested to feeling extreme panic anxiety and depression while doing a reboot. So it doesn't need to be a bad thing. I feel like my mind and body has been so used to going to PMO as an anxiety management technique that not doing it just magnifies the anxiety by 10X, it is just the raw unfiltered anxiety and dread of something bad happening. I have still been doing my healthier habits like my fixed sleep cycle, positive affirmations and yoga in the morning and journaling. And even doing all of my relaxing methods to try to calm down only seems to have been putting a small dent in my anxiety recently. I think I have to learn to accept it like I have never before in order for it to calm down. If I wasn't doing all of the positive habits while doing nofap I think that I would feel worse. In fact I know how bad I would feel and I probably would have given up if I had nothing to focus my mind and energy onto. I think I can just sit here until I feel my anxiety calming down. I will also try my best to not go any distractions like browsing on my phone or social media. It's a kind of gateway into porn. Okay after accidentally erasing everything I wrote I think I managed to remember most of it. Oh and I think if I just get through this anxiety that there is a bright light at the end of the tunnel. It may not seem like it no but if I am patient then I will start to see. I want to be a Jedi Knight. I deserve to be a Jedi Knight. I am ready.
It looks like you're going through a particularly rough patch. You had a nice streak before from what I saw that was a month long, and its hard to start over again. Remind yourself that you should be proud of making it that far, and that if you made it that far once before, there's nothing stopping you from going farther in the future Have you ever tried making a rebooting journal? If not, there are sections of the forum for you to start one in, look around at other people's journals to see some examples of how others use theirs. And if you have made a journal before, there's no shame in starting a new one. I have found that my journal has been a good way to make progress, and its nice having a thread of my own that I can post consistently in.