Sex with my wife during reboot ?

I’m 33 and Without knowing it, I rebooted myself about 10 years ago after realizing watching too much porn was causing trouble in the bedroom. I was afraid to tell my wife that it was my porn addiction causing my lack of performance. She started accusing me of cheating or not finding her attractive anymore, but i knew it was my constant porn viewing and fap sessions that was causing the problem. So, I stopped watching porn and within a few weeks I was back to my normal performance. I don’t remember exactly how long I stayed away from porn after that. Fast forward to present; yesterday I found myself sitting in the waiting room of a doctors office to go speak to him about my recent ED problems. It absolutely had not come to my mind that my porn habit was back and worse than before and causing me problems as it had ten years ago. I went in to see the doc and he did several tests and spoke to me about my relationship with my wife and if I had any other sexual partners. Of course I said no. He then wrote me a prescription for ED pills and told me he would call me when the test results come back. I left the dr’s office with my script, not really wanting to get it filled but desperately wanting to have a successful love making session with my wife. Still not realizing it was my addiction causing the problems. So I went to the pharmacy and walked up to the counter where three beautiful young blonde pharmacists were behind the counter and I swallowed my pride and handed her the script, almost trembling with embarrassment. The whole time thinking, “I’m 33 years old, I shouldn’t need to take ED pills to make love to my wife, what’s wrong with me?” I work offshore on an oil rig and am gone for three weeks at a time, then home for three weeks. After three weeks at work with very little porn(porn is blocked at work so it’s only a few vids that I downloaded that I could watch) I came home and lost my erection after about one minute of sex and was unable to get another one to finish. The whole time I was trying to get it back I was running through different porn scenarios in my mind. I’m about to go back to work in a few days and out of about 10 attempts of having sex, four were successful. So upon doing some research of my own today, I came across a page that said porn addiction can cause ED. As soon as I read it, the memories of what had happened to me ten years ago came back to me. So now I am fairly confident that my test results will come back with no abnormalities. But I also have to deal with the fact that I have a problem that needs fixing (again). I know I can abstain from watching porn fairly easily but i don’t think I can go any more than my three weeks at work without having sex with my wife. I think I can do my three weeks at work without fapping. I plan on telling her about my addiction when she gets home from work and I think she will take it well. She has been suggesting that it might be that cause of my problems anyway. I know when I rebooted before, we still had sex and it seemed to work fine. What do you guys think? Any comments or questions on anything I stated are welcomed.

 

I think I’m just going to give the pm a try at first. It’s funny, I can switch it off while at work because I’m busy and tired. Sometimes go a week without p or o. But when I’m on my days off at home while my wife and kids are gone to work and school, as soon as they leave the house I’m opening my private browser.

 

Not really possible to get anything closer to home with anywhere near the same pay. Before this I was travelling across the country doing 14 days on and 7 days off. 2 of those 7 days off I was flying. Before that I used to go for 6-7 months at a time. I’m in a far better situation work wise right now..lol. For our entire relationship that’s how it’s been. We’re both fine with it. It bothers each of us at different times but we talk about it and get through it. It’s a sacrifice we both make to live the kind of lifestyle we want for ourselves and our kids. As far as getting addicted to the ED pills goes, I don’t think that will be an issue as I feel I can make a fairly quick recovery. I’m more of a binge addict. While I’m at work I don’t watch any, or very little and can go a week or more easily without O. I just need to change my habits at home. My last two days off have been the worse and that’s when the ED started as well. I’m home for most of the day by myself. Usually I’d be outside uniting or fishing. But lately just been in the basement on my phone. Lol. Now I think that I recognized the problem it should correct itself fairly quickly. I have gone four days now without thinking of it too much, maybe 2-3 times. I know I can go my full three weeks at work without pmo as I have done so a few times in the past, just because. I’ll give it a try and hope for the best. Back to work on Monday.