I've been doing NoFap challenges past 2 months, i'd always relapse after 2 weeks. I told all my friends about how amazing NoFap is and I loved it. I had a final Saturday for my math class, and Friday afternoon i took some adderall to study. The sad, pathetic porn addict deep inside me ended up typing in Porn just to sneak a peek, and i binged on porn for 6 HOURS telling myself the whole time "dont worry youll kill this test, u got this. keep fapping" By the end of it, i ruined my 4 week challenge of no PMO, and i busted the most lifechanging nut of my life lol. It changed my life because it made me realize how long I've been using PMO as my escape from reality, and my escape from achieving my true potential. started studying math after that, and i couldn't think straight. "no pun intended, kinda." Unable to blink without seeing a flash of the F'd up videos i just watched, i gave in and relapsed again. Literally could feel fake dopamine surging to my brain as i opened up a new Incognito Tab and typed in that evil 4 letter word that rhymes with horn. That is not the man You, me, or any male is supposed to become. I realized that night that these crooked, sick, depressed, and probly ugly porn addicted producers have hi-jacked my masculinity, and ultimately, my life. My friends lie to themselves denying that these virtual sex slaves dont destroy the natural, god-given miracle chemical known as dopamine. But it does, and thats what porn companies want. I even saw an AD on pornhub the during relapse that said "Failed NoFap? Don't worry, we got you." THOSE BASTARDS ARE EVIL. They know we doin nofap cuz they know we are addicted and want to stop watching porn, and they see us trying to better ourselves as an opportunity to create a clever ad for their website. Reminds me of the IT clown telling kids to come into the Sewer saying "Hey little boy, are you lost? Don't worry, I'll take care of you down here". Sick bastards.....Anyway, Everyone eventually learns the hard way about porn, and friday night i learned the hard way (again, no pun intended, kinda) I eventually failed my math final on saturday, wasted a whole semester of hard work and money, and broke my moms heart because i promised her i would pass. When she asked my what i did all day instead of studying, i didn't know what to say, but i felt pure misery. I let pornography ruin the trust i had with my family. How ironic, i actually watched a video called "porn ruined your family" F anybody making that kind of sick shit, F the porn industry that tricks pornstars into ruining their lives, and F making excuses for giving into that BS. I made this account to get serious about quitting because i want to look back and say failing that math test was my low point. The 1st time i had PEID with the 1st love of my life senior year of highschool should've been that low point, and we ended up never having sex because of it. After a year of dating, we eventually broke up cuz things weren't working out. Maybe if we had that magical moment of losing our virginities to each other, i wouldn't have lost her. Never made love to the girl of my dreams, sad shit right? Dont worry, there were PLENTY of cuckold porn and videos of girls calling me a virgin loser to help play on my insecurities and comfort me )))))) I actually believe i am not a loser thought. I was a "popular" kid in highschool, pretty buff and athletic, in honors class and actually had a hot ass GF. Now im 20 years young, at ASU doing my thing, living life, and pursuing my career. Im not trying to tell u how cool i am, for christ sake im on a website for stopping porn addiction. I left my ego at the "create an account" screen. Im trying to make the point that im not a whimpy little submissive loser in the real world. This addiction can happen to ANYONE. Its not natural for humans to indulge in so much dopamine and sexual stimulation in the privacy of our room to the hottest girls in the world b4 we even ever make love to a female. It doesnt make me, you, or anyone else a loser. Letting it control you does. Im sorry Mom that i let you down, and im sorry to the first love of my life that i couldnt give you that romantic storybook moment of losing ur virginity to ur highschool sweetheart on prom night. (Ya guys, :/// it happened on fucking prom night) And to Me, M1K3, I promise you a fulfilling life that brings u true love that isnt fabricated by warped sexual desires and wasted years spent on a laptop. Buckle up, lets grind. Also, Buckle ur pants cuz ur gonna get a lot of random boners and ur gonna wanna tuck those up........Sincerely, -Your dick and brain I will keep all you fellow fapstronauts updated weekly if u want hear my badass success story unfold and u want to embark on this journey with me. Also, seeing comments and replies will help me in dark times of wanting to relapse. We in this together brethren. As much as im doing this for me, im doing it for yall now so i can help motivate. I rambled a bit in that post but i got carried away venting. Feels good to vent about this lowkey topic to a buncha other ppl willing to accept it. FINALLY THE INTERNET IS HELPING US LOL. God bless NoFap and god bless ya'll on ur journeys. Remember why we're doing this and think with your head, not your hand. See ya!
That deserves a Like times 100 icon! Inspiring stuff bro! I'm 43 and still grappling with it. We will get there, let's help each other out!
Mah dude im half irish! We're gonna need the luck of the irish on this journey lol. i literally feel my body telling me to relapse after only 2 days. addiction is a real thing my friend. We'll stay in teach! good luck
