Yesterday Lupus failed at no 'F' - fantasizing. The urges turned out to be too strong to refrain from daydreaming about PMO. Since the last wet dream it was unbearable - returning dirty thoughts and associations all the time. Lupus wants to be honest with all of you and apologise. Today again 1/365 - no porn fantasies anymore.
Day 13/365, trying hard I relapse thrice last week,still trying,worse pain due to blue balls but won't give up, Stay strong,don't fantasize
Nice Thread @2525 Mashallah, i remember you since i started in September 2017 !! and now you are opening this thread! Great progress brother you were true to your words in your summary of your journal (most attempts fail if you don’t share them with others as we all need support) much love and support for your efforts)) and in that i do agree brother with you we all need to share with others as i will be more active now since summer is coming and i will be free from studies. But i will also keep the single counter since i plan on this 3rd attempt to last forever this is my Resolution and will! Its day 33/365 now on 16th of April 2018 inshallah i will beat this record As i have done so in my last attempts
Day 0. MOd this morning after 168 days no PMO =(, and I am quite disappointed with myself. I started edging a few days ago (which obviously is a terrible idea), and just could not control it anymore. I am well aware why I relapsed (related to what I posted yesterday) and will get these factors out of my life. I will immediately start the challenge over again, with the additional rule no edging (which I only started a few days ago anyways,but adding it to my rules gives my brain less chance to rationalize), and eliminate all triggers. I really hope I wont fall back into a relapse loop, which happens so easily from my past experiences. Some words of caution: It is true that abstaining gets significantly easier once you are past a certain point (which unfortunately can take a while), but it is equally true, that once you have strong triggers in your life, no matter have far youve been, failure is likely. By the way 168 days was the longest streak of my life.. I am sad its over..
know your triggers and stay away, don't feel bad you are not on day 0 your brain has healed much from those 168 days, think of your addiction as a large wound in your arm so if you relapsed just for one day it's like you just removed a bit of the scab from the healing wound don't worry you still have some scab left catching my drift, plus do not feel sad or depressed that is how your brain will urge you more often to relapse, do not edge because this will make your relapse inevitable Hope this helps!
Day 6- It is a fine Monday morning. The weather is great. The Sun is out in full swing. I just noticed the different kinds of birds today. Well before nofap, I would just walk mindlessly to my destination. These days, I take notice of a lot of things in nature. The other day I noticed some butterflies around where I live. I looked at them for a while and was I amazed. Nature is awesome. I think my brain is healing well.