Hard time getting back on board. Strong urges after slip. Restlessness, mood swings, and fear are creeping back in. The urge has subsided going to bed to complete Day 1.
Hello dear friends . I just signed up this great website minutes ago and started my 365 great days toward a better life . I'm glad to be here to do it together and share our journey ,the advises,tips and opinions about it. And i am sure all of us can do it. So,i'm in . Day 0/365 Stay strong we can all do it together . Peace...
Relapse since I was viewing Instagram models which caused me to view P So Day 1 for me again. But I won't give up and I'll be stronger this time.
Here are some brain changes that show up in all addictions, whether substance or behavioral: ___________________________________________________ 1. Desensitisation, or a numbed response to pleasure. Reduced dopamine signaling [103] and other changes[104] leave the addict less sensitive to everyday pleasures and 'hungry' for dopamine-raising activities and substances. [105] The addict may neglect other interests and activities that were once high priorities. Desensitisation is probably the first addiction-related brain change porn users notice. They need greater and greater stimulation to achieve the same buzz (tolerance'). They may spend more time online, prolonging sessions through edging, watching when not masturbating, or searching for the perfect video to end with. But desensitization can also take the form of escalating to new genres, perfect video to end with. But desensitization can also take the form of escalating to new genres, sometimes harder and stranger, or even disturbing. Remember: shock, surprise, and anxiety can jack up dopamine. 2. Sensitisation, or an unconscious super-memory of pleasure that, when activated, triggers powerful cravings. Rewired nerve connections cause the reward circuit to buzz[106] in response to addiction-related cues or thoughts[107] – the ‘fire together wire together’ principle. This Pavlovian memory makes the addiction more compelling than other activities in the addict's life. Cues, such as turning on the computer, seeing a pop-up, or being alone, trigger intense cravings for porn. Are you suddenly much hornier (true libido) when your wife goes shopping? Unlikely. But perhaps you feel as if you are on autopilot, or someone else is controlling your brain. Some describe a sensitized porn response as ‘entering a tunnel that has only one escape: porn’. Maybe you feel a rush, rapid heartbeat, even trembling, and all you can think about is logging onto your favorite tube site. These are examples of sensitised addiction pathways activating your reward circuit, screaming, ‘Do it now!’ 3. Hypofrontality, or reduced brain activity in the prefrontal regions, which weakens willpower in the face of strong subconscious cravings. Alterations[108] in the prefrontal regions' grey matter[109] and white matter[110] correlate with reduced impulse control[111] and the weakened ability to foresee consequences.[112] A recent German review of brain and psychological studies concluded that reduced brain function in internet addicts may be related to their loss of control over their internet use.[113] Hypofrontality shows up as the feeling that two parts of your brain are engaged in a tug-of-war. The sensitised addiction pathways are screaming ‘Yes!’ while your ‘higher brain’ is saying, ‘No, not again!’ While the executive-control portions of your brain are in a weakened condition the addiction pathways usually win. 4. Dysfunctional stress circuits,[114] which can make even minor stress lead to cravings and relapse because they activate powerful sensitised pathways. To sum up, if these neuroplastic changes could speak, desensitisation would be moaning, ‘I can't get no satisfaction’. At the same time, sensitisation would be poking you in the ribs saying, ‘hey, I’ve got just what you need’, which happens to be the very thing that caused the desensitisation.Hypofrontality would be shrugging and sighing, ‘bad idea, but I can't stop you’. Dysfunctional stress circuits would be screaming, ‘I NEED something NOW to take the edge off!’. ___________________________________________________ Guys, I recommend every one to read the full book 'your brain on porn' by Gary A. Wilson.
The path toward recovery from addiction is often not a straight line, get back on track and beware the chaser effect.
Day 0 yet again. What the hell is wrong with me? My anxiety is at an all time high and I fear that my depressive state is about to get worse. Almost on the brink... I am going on a very long jog. Let me get out of the house. I have been sleeping and watching youtube all day long trying to escape these feelings. It's only a matter of time before I am watching porn again at this rate.
Day 119/365 I was just a little depressed these days because of maybe I've studied something boring for a general examination, but now actually I'm feeling good. Knowing something interesting makes me excited; reading texts for universities is more interesting than reading these unexciting texts for me! The important thing in controlling emotions from tomorrow, is to remember and use what I've learned from facing myself. The general exam will be over in 2 days. I put my all into the exam!
I got aroused by some thoughts yesterday and my dick went wet with pre-cum but didn't fapped, and I want to have a streak of pure hard mode so I'm setting the counter again....... Today day 1completed 1/365 Day 2/365 started