Day 1/14. I have been randomly having the strangest visions/dreams about PMOing, but it doesn't seem to be giving me any urges, so I won't worry about it.
10/14 Went out. On my way back home, sat in my car and browsed the escort/massage forums for a good 30min. I just sat there deciding if I should go book or not. I was compelled. It was compulsion. I felt pathetic. Today was too close, but I thought about my 10 Day progress and drove back home. Now I'm here. Again, way to close. But I'm gonna grow from this. I will move beyond this disease, this sickness. I'm healing, but it takes time and focus.
Day 4(plus day 3, which I didn't post). Day 3 was really hard to me. I almost gave in, but thankfully I managed to not masturbate. Day 4 was easier. Also, I slept less than what I like to before this night, so it was a lot easier to sleep without thinking about masturbation. I'm feeling really better than before. More clarity and I feel like I see the world a lot better, and think better too. Plus, I had a spontaneous erection during an extra-class meeting for some minutes; which was a bit awkward, but was also very cool indeed. There were some girls in there, however it wasn't even crossing my mind, and then...
Day 13th...urges all day long, but they came and went all on their own. Im feeling free and energized.
Thank you for the encouraging words. Wish I saw it earlier today because I did slip again. But I will never give up. I haven't gone two weeks without slipping in nearly 20 years. I am determined to reach this goal. I am setting myself back to day 0 *edit* It was past midnight.
Day 11/14. Made it thru yesterday + feel energized and clear. Big Hard Erection this AM. When flaccid, I'm seeing more fuller hang of my dick + balls, too. Stay the path and get your dick and brain working for you.
2/14 I've decided to weave this "hard mode" No PMO challenge (adhering to all the stated guidelines including no edging or O from any source) into my program.