So last night was OK, got through it fine and worked through a couple of urges. Need to keep myself busy again today... Let's get day 2 in the bag and start making progress again!
And... Relapse AGAIN!!! Why can't I shake this thing? I had over 35 days on my longest streak yet I can't seem to get back to even 1 week now... It's like all of my motivation to succeed has been drained... So back to zero... This time I WILL NOT bend...
Day 3 complete. Going to a meeting at noon and hopefully basketball tonight. Feels good to wake up sober.
Hey Everyone, I've been silent here for a while. I had a couple of really good streaks of 10 days or so, but also some pretty hard crashes where I looked at porn several times in the same day. I've learned that situations in my life that make me feel powerless are my greatest trigger. Porn makes me feel in control. I can choose when I use it and control the outcome of using it. This is a huge revelation to me, so I'll be digging into that and learning how to feel powerful and in control of my life. I'm getting married in 127 days. I would really like to complete this challenge before that date. Here we go again! Day 0
Hey brother I can totally relate to what you're going through, what may have helped me is I started painting a very bad picture of porn, I could imagine things like getting married to my beautiful gf, but then losing her bcoz of obsession with porn, and this drove me nuts, I could also imagine failing at my business bcoz of spending too much time on porn instead of growing personally and working on my business. So just try to imagine what all in your life you could lose bcoz of porn, like really start to hate it. I hope this might help..
do the recovery, give all you got. marriage is an important thing and if you don´t get over your addiction it will ruin your marriage, big time. so give all you got!!! let´s go!!!!!
it´s pretty normal. whenever i start a streak the first days are always the hardest ones. per example, now i´m on day 1, just to get 24 hours without using porn i relapse the last 4 days, that´s how hard it is . because porn is ingrained in your system, part of the routine life, and it´s hard to all the sudden detach from it. so what you need to do especially in the first week it´s to get an extra boost of motivation, willpower. write a text to yourself: detail how porn harms your life. and all the great benefits you´ll gain from breaking free the addiction. write also that you are ready to face all the withdrawal synthoms (that will appear in different moments through the recovery). also write the typical excuses that your mind uses to consume porn and write a counter-argument to each excuse. in that way you´re ready when your mind try to play tricks in you, because it will. read the text every mourning, or several times a day if you want. that will give you willpower. also keep busy, do physical exercises and don´t get drunk!!! it will cut your willpower and create brain fog. participate in the forum every day. don´t isolate yourself, isolation feeds addctions. you can do it!! let´s go!!!!!
for every one who uses porn to numb strong negative feelings, do this exercise. it´s a short meditation, only 3 minutes but it´s great to change your mood for the better, without resort to porn, alcohol, drugs, food, whatever.... i strongly recommend it.