Thanks, that does help. I am strengthening my resolve and remembering why I started this journey in the first place... To become a better man, one who deals with his emotions and does not use porn to suppress them and feel better in the moment. I am also hoping that my relationship with my SO can become stronger and more honest too.
Thanks, I think I need to keep present in my mind *why* I am doing this... * To become a better person * To become more emotionally aware * To become a better husband * To become the best I can be... I was feeling very down after my last relapse; went for a long walk to clear my head... I need to fight the urges which are telling my thinking mind that I can not control it; that it doesn't matter if I don't get caught etc. That it will make me feel better... These are all lies; I know this I need to fight to strengthen my neural pathways that enforce the positive behaviours and not allow those pathways which I have allowed to develop to win... The strength and power to win over this is within me; and I WILL win!
Well, I drank last night and had a relapse, back to 0/90. I'm going to have to be much more vigilant about things like drinking otherwise it's going to be to easy to slip.
bad day today. withdrawal symphoms are hitting hard, i felt irritated and numb all day long . luckly no urges appeared
Day 25/90 it's been a busy at work, still having quite a bit of fantasies about sex but nothing leading to urges, thank God. Planning on going to the beach this weekend, hopefully will not be tempted to stare.
Day 4 complete. Regretful/lustful thoughts are starting to seep in. I know that’s just my brain trying to get me to relapse. Just got to a meeting.
Day 4 today doing some deep thinking about what my goals are in life and how can I improve my self to be the best I can I feel very emotional today because of some personal issues and it's really effecting my nofap journey but I must continue strong -day 4-
