There's just too many variables to explain, and I don't know if you're trying to get more information out of me or not. Whether it's out of curiosity or the possibility to sympathize for my unfortunate out comings, I really don't want to discuss this anymore. This post was written 4 years ago, and some Fapstronaut decided to look so deep into the history of this forum, that this post was revealed once more. Like I've told everyone, I'm a much different person now than I was then, and I'm much better off. As for sharing, I really don't want to dig deep into the past of my misfortunes with women, but rather have others give me a sense of support and appreciation for what I'm trying to accomplish. I shouldn't have dragged this post from 4 years anyway, and it's pulling me back into a dark past that I don't want to get involved in. I'm sorry if you feel that you're not getting the information that you need, but as of now, I don't want to talk about my problems that I had nearly half a decade ago.