8 days! Every step I take I'm unsure of my footing, and every corner I turn I'm afraid of seeing myself sinking into the couch and watching porn In a trance state. It's such a fear inducing thing to face addiction. I can't trust myself, and that's the worst thing of all. But this is a battle, and I'm keeping on. I just got back from a trip, so it was easier as I didn't have time to myself, but now I'm back to work. Lot's of hard days in front of me. Lets do this.
Yes! For me, letting go of achieving a full reboot is important, because I need to focus on the battle right NOW. Reboot will come on its own. Keep kicking ass!
I read a good quote the other day. Can’t remember exactly but this guy was saying will power is good but not putting yourself in a vulnerable position is better. Avoid going online. If you do don’t do it alone. I’ve deleted all social media and blocked Instagram/Facebook etc. They are all triggers to relapse. This is my 30th day and longest streak ever. I want to go forever obviously but aiming for the end of the year/Christmas!!! Anyone up for the challenge? Follow me and il follow back. We can keep each other accountable Get too the chopper!!!!!!!!!!!
When you walk through a storm Hold your head up high And don't be afraid of the dark At the end of a storm There's a golden sky And the sweet silver song of a lark Walk on through the wind Walk on through the rain Though your dreams be tossed and blown Walk on, walk on With hope in your heart And you'll never walk alone You'll never walk alone Walk on, walk on With hope in your heart And you'll never walk alone You'll never walk alone Celtic F.C.
Day 1/30. More stress from school than anything else. Certainly seems manageable so far, but I don't want to underestimate things. I've been using the new iOS screen time settings to block websites and social media on my phone and it's been a game-changer already. I highly recommend it to anyone with an iPhone. Feeling all right about this.