Day 0, need to get a few of these under my belt before moving on to 7 days, addiction is too real, need to be real with myself and face that fact. 3 days is better than nothing in my book.
I’m doing this. I’ve been fighting a war with myself for far too long, and I’m done simply defending myself from anxiety. I want to fight for peace. I want a real life, with real love and real sex. I’m sick of living my days with porn-induced social anxiety. I’m sick of relieving myself with the very thing causing the problem. I’m sick of self-loathing, cutting myself with razors when trying to stop this addiction feels hopeless. I’m sick of bleeding. I’m sick of pain in my penis from excessive masturbation. I’m sick of living a double life and not feeling truthful to my goals. I’m sick of the porn industry and it’s ”endless tide of depressing misogyny”. I’m sick of feeling morally responsible for the poor lives of young exploited girls. I’m doing this. Wish me good luck.
After a few relapses, decided to start all over again with this small challenge. All I have to do is get through the weekend without PMO. Today is day 1.
Day one completed. No urges. Day 2: very strong urges this morning but was able to distract myself. Later part of the day when was alone, the urges returned again. Why these urges hit us at the perfect time when we are so vulnerable?