Day 19. Anyone ever get caught up in a conversation or argument in which someone is convinced porn is totally fine? Noticed the past few years that a lot of the millennial generation (of which I'm a member) is convinced that for the most part there's no right or wrong and everything is subjective. Hit me today that almost every main antagonist in famous stories (Harry Potter, The Dark Knight, The Lord of the Rings, several examples in the Bible, Greek myths and others, etc.) has a point where they're trying to convince the hero that there is no right and wrong and that only power is important, but their alternative is always chaos. To me it seems an easy thing to break down, but I think it's seductive because it's a half-truth and maybe also because it's a lot easier to believe a platitude than to have to work out why something is the way it is. I've noticed many use a similar arguments when talking about porn addiction and the same sort of intentional ignorance from many. Anyone have any thoughts or ever had this happen in relation to a conversation about porn addiction?
Day 133 "To succeed in your mission, you must have single-minded devotion to your goal." – A. P. J. Abdul Kalam
Day 4 I'm currently on 46 day streak, just saw Happier by marshmallow video when my cousin insisted it. My mind got blown with it . I'm the man who haven't cried for years. After watching this, I'm trying so much harder to not cry in front of my family. I'm crying so much internally. How can a simple video make me cry? Is it normal?..or is it nofap effect? Did nofap made me sensitive? Please tell me how to get rid of this.
Day 52- Just cruising along! Nofap has gotten a bit boring for me! No urges to fight or battle. Weird that I want to battle urges..he he
Daily check in; 4 days done, on day 5 now. Had dreams last couple nights in a row of watching porn. Felt like I was close to wet dream too but didn't happen. Sexual thoughts and fantasies are pretty much a thing right after waking up and before sleep. Sometimes during day too. Not as bad as it can be after a week or two but still about 70% of my max. Gotta get back in mindfulness meditation so I can catch myself. Otherwise it's hard to resist them. No real urges to fap or watch porn though yet. Had one tiny urge yesterday but it was more like an automatic habit due to short moment of unconsciousness; once I remembered that I was on nofap it was super easy to resist it. I gotta be careful about these unconscious habits kicking in, one more reason to start meditating again to increase my awareness.