Day 57. Out of the blue last nite started having intense fantasies. I'm feeling kind of discouraged about it tbh. I think it has to do with being so close to 60 days. But I went over the whole PMO cycle in my mind, seeing exactly how unfulfilling it is, how it makes me feel lousy, and bad about myself. I don't want to go there. I've been feeling more positive since I started this challenge, more inner strength, more peaceful, more like my old self. And I don't want to slide backwards the first day I'm "off-the-clock". Not sure what I'm gonna do. I think I'll probably sign up for another challenge. I've made too much progress this time just to throw it away on a cheap thrill so I can spiral down again. We must keep fighting. We must choose our own positive paths. For some of us we must keep making this choice every day.