I know this feeling. I'll tell you something that's helped me in the past. I think to myself ... "Ok I could relapse today. But, what if i just give myself a day to think about it? Maybe tomorrow I'll feel different. Maybe tomorrow I won't even be interested in relapsing at all. So why not just wait till tomorrow and see how I feel about it? I mean it's just one day." Sometimes just allowing myself this time buffer helps diffuse the tension enough to get past those moments of heightened urges. It's really just a trick I use to try and stretch the time out till the urges pass. Anyway I don't mean to give unsolicited advice, but just in case it helps I thought I'd pass it along.
Thank you. That's what I will keep trying. One day at a time. And any helpful advice is always appreciated. That's one of the reasons I post here.
Be aware of the images that you view in your mind. If you are in your head dwelling on sexually explicit scenes over and over again, it has a powerful effect on what you do. Are you on your own team or are you working against yourself? When I was on my long streak of no PMO, I was not entirely aligned with it. Although I had stopped PMO, my eyes were still on the lookout for sexually arousing input in other places. And my mind was prone to dwelling on that input and making up new fantasies to satisfy cravings. If you pay attention to what you are doing that leads toward relapse, it gives you the option to change course.
Day 3/365. Haven't noticed any more feelings I associate with the chaser effect since yesterday morning.
V/XIX. I had an incredibily strong urge, but with an intensive therapy of NoFap videos of 30 minutes, in about an hour I came out of it with more motivaton than before. There's no way I'm gonna fail so easily.
Thanks for that. I know what led to the relapse. Even though I was abstaining from pmo I was indulging often in lustful fantasies. Plus if I saw a woman I found sexually attractive I would let my mind run with it. For me it's not just pmo I'm addicted to but lust overal. In the long run i need to surrender the lust in all forms if I'm to have a healthy relationship with sex.
Day 1 again. 91 days this time. Posting about this in a journal I'm starting here: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/pen-of-light.199137/#post-1731878 Looking forward to being more active in the community - I think I might need it. Happy to see so many of you are still here and doing well.