Day 4 of 365. I'm realizing some lies I used to believe that kept me acting out the addiction: - 'My body has to have sex in one form or another, so I have no choice but to act it out.' Nope, that is bullshit. It is completely up to me whether to have sex or not. - 'If I am sexually stimulated by some scene or event, I have to find a way to orgasm. The drive will overpower me eventually.' Absolute nonsense. My mind and body are resilient. If I don't stoke the flames of my sexually urges by flooding my mind with mental images of whatever got me turned on, it will fade away very rapidly. - 'I have to orgasm. It's unhealthy to retain semen for too long.' Nope. I've found no scientific studies to prove this. After going over 200 days without orgasm, I felt fine. No negative symptoms.
I have been on the nofap website since 2014 & trying to quit PMO since then however my longest streak is 37 days which i reached this year in February so now I have completed that much journey...from now onwards a new journey a new dream a new hope...a road of success i never walked before...Day 37/365
You're right. I notice that I am on the lookout and imagining things. I've been working to stop them when I notice them. Previously, I wouldn't engage them too much, but I definitely was not working to stop them. I need to stop creating fantasies in my head, or find something to replace them with. That is a main focus for me. Thank you for this insightful post. I new what I was doing, but didn't realize how much it affected me, and can lead to relapse. I need to replace these fantasies that go on pretty spontaneously, especially if I am stressed, in my regular life with some positive mental stories.
77/365. I need to replace the sexual narratives that I have in my head for different scenarios with some more realistic thinking.
Day 45: Although I have not finished 90 days challenge, I think I can overcome 365 days challenge as well!
Thirty- first day without pmo. I am doing a list updating every day about why I don't want pmo: day 1) I want to recover passion in my life; day 2) I want harmony with other people; day 3) I want to listen to my emotions; day 4) I want to recover self esteem; day 5) I want to love myself; day 6) I want to appreciate the little things of life; day 7) I want to appreciate quotidianty; day 8) I want to live my pulses; day 9) I want to enjoy also bad moments; day 10) I want to feel energic; days 11-13) I want to respect myself; day 14) I want to have lightness in life; day 15) I want be a good friend; day 16) I want overwhelm difficulties of life; days 17-21) I want to have good performances in sport; days 22-24) I want to find balance in sexuality; day 24-31) I want to feel energic. 31 days are just the beginning in the recovery. I discovered the importance of a plan. I dreamed to be without pmo. Now I plan my life without pmo
Day 5/365. I think porn addiction is a symptom of something deeper... an addiction to lust. It's like drug addiction, but instead of ingesting something you take-in whatever sexually appealing scenes come into your line of sight or you find them in your memory. And you use them to create sexual fantasies that feed the addiction and the addiction takes over your life. The initial impact of trying to shut off this pattern is like withdrawal from drugs or alcohol. You crave the physical pleasure you get from the addiction. It feels like there is no more pleasure in your life without it. Keep going, let yourself feel and experience that emptyness and you will get past it over time. You will find there is a natural pleasure to life that was blocked by your lust addiction, and now you can enjoy it.
Day 84 Made a list of skills I have. Will review it every week and will make sure to add something new to it.