Day 1/30 Here we go again. The long, slow road to recovery. This evening I almost decided to look at porn, then gently told myself "that's a dead-end street," and I went and did the dishes instead. Looking forward to a few days out when the urges start to become less intense. If you're with me in these first few days of a challenge, hang in there. It gets better soon. This painting came to me in an e-mail meditation today, and I think it captures what the road of healing and sobriety looks like for a lot of us. Shalom, urban_pilgrim Piotr Jarosz, by William Kurelek
Day 0 "Continuing the streak is much easier than starting over" I'm struggling after breaking my longest streak of 121 days one month ago. If I follow a single thought it's over It's very hard to beat this addiction but it totally worths as I was in heaven in the 4 months streak comparing to these days. I believe that whoever could beat it is a real hero. I will stay vigilant every moment and will kick this hell forever. Keep fighting everyone!
6th day and now I see how addiction turn me into someone else. Well the word "someone else" may be an exageration but it definitely has made me thought about some things bound to it, whether it is clearly a direct allusion or not. I have to get rid of it, nobody should have faced that problem!
