Thanks. I recall the HALT acronym. It describes my days nicely. I am hungry due to the fasting of Ramadan, angry because of an uncertain future, lonely..., and tired due to late nights w/community and otherwise.
Checking in. I broke my fast today because it was totally messing up my sleep, which was messing up my thinking and mood. Alot has surfaced and the 9 days did me good but it was best for me to end it. I'm still sticking with no caffiene( ideally forever) and no t.v. or movies until June 4 or 5. Only movies with my 6 1/2 year old daughter. I've lost my temper pretty basd recently and had some other anger episodes. Anger has always been a problem for me and recently I've been seeing a therapist for it. Sleep deprivation brings out tghe worst in me. Happysloths mentioned the importance of it and it's so true. One day at a time. Good nig ht.
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Good for you for seeing a therapist about anger! That could possibly have a big effect by getting to the root of it or at least helping you have more awareness of the anger so you are able to catch it before you act on it.
Nice work! In my experience, holding your ground against very strong urges comes with great rewards. The strong urges start to surface less and less frequently, and it strengthens your resolve and your belief in yourself. It's almost like the strong urges are thinking "I can't break this guy, what's the use even trying. I'll just go back to sleep." They will try you again from time to time, especially when a sexually stimulating experience crosses your path, but if you hold your ground on each test, they will keep retreating and only show up if invited.
34 days. Feeling awful today with allergies and a splitting headache. Killing my libido totally. Should make for an easy nofap day lol.