Don´t know what to say...but today I start

Hello guys...I think that today I finally became aware that I need to stop with my old habits (masturbation and porn addiction).
Let me tell you a little bit about myself, I´ve been watching porn and masturbating since I was 13 years old, now nearing my 30, trying to keep a healthy sex life but the need and urge to masturbate has been always there. I have tried to stop it up, managed to last four months cold turkey but relapsed again, this was four years ago...nowadays I can last a week the most.
Anyways, since I changed homes I have been having issues to have solo time to watch porn and stuff, so I am sneaking to workplace earlier (I run a gym), using that space to masturbate and watch porn...the thing is that I know that I could end up having a problem by either someone coming into when I am in the middle of such activities or something, making me realize that I could end up losing everything just because of that...today I relapsed again and did the same thing that I talked you about and made me think that I was an idiot...I know that going cold turkey sometimes is not the best thing to do, but knowing myself it is the only way, in other words, today I start. Will try to keep updates on what happens and at least try to surpass the four months that I have previously achieved, thanks guys and sorry for the long read, thank you!!

 

Going on a week now guys...been really hard, but managed to keep it up. I will update next week

 

I cut on everything that led me to start masturbating...the only thing that I didn´t cut was having sex because I have a partner, but appart from that, I am going cold turkey like I go on everything. It is hard, really HARD, but I am managing it as best as I can, thanks a lot for your kind and supportive words also!!

 

Update...nearly 12 days since I started and I am tempted of breaking down, will keep up posted on what happens, wish me luck!!

 

I survived...watched porn, tried to masturbate but stopped as soon as I knew that things were going down the shitter, balls are in pain (probably have blue balls), but will keep on going forward

 

I relapsed again...been dealing with a lot of anxiety, stress and depression lately, so I gave in again. I don´t feel ashamed, I feel like I failed, will get back on track again...

 

I am back after a while...relapsed a ton of times, now going 10 days and strong!!

 

I am back…everytime I post here I relapse maybe a day or two after, now I am 15 days and going strong, yesterday had a HUGE urge to masturbate, nearly did it but controlled myself…next week will be updating

 

Update...relapsed a few days ago and after thinking a lot about it, I told my significant other that I had an issue with masturbation, at first she did not understand what I was talking about, but after telling her a little bit about what happened, she managed to understand and be with me during this struggle. I am not telling her anything that I did in the past regarding my addiction, but it helps to know that I have someone next to me when I am down.
Also, I am hypersalivating A LOT...I read that one of the things that could probably lead to this is the excessive masturbation, is that right guys??