154/365. I have been feeling very apathetic lately. My gaze has slipped/almost slipped a few times. I feel very weak mentally.
Greetings, Today is Day 4 I have decided to start each challenge from Day 1. I will not begin this challenge until i have completed the previous challenge. Thank you
This is so good man! I love to hear how you are taking full ownership of your life and investing in yourself to grow as a person. It's amazing how much more fulfilling all those things are compared to porn. You are an awesome person and truly valuable to the people and the world around you!!
I don't feel that I've been completely honest with myself throughout this streak.. I've definitely looked at inappropriate images; not "porn" per say, some would argue otherwise that looking at anything that arouses you is porn.. And as far as rewiring goes, that is true. Even if it isn't, it certainly isn't going to benefit my rebooting process. And, I've started to edge (not to porn) but stopped myself on a few instances.. I'm definitely doing better than I have before, but I don't want to maintain a streak founded on dishonesty. If I'm going to do this, I'm going to do it all the way. I'm not going to "loophole" my way out of accountability just to keep numbers on the board. I may be putting a lot of pressure on my shoulders by doing that, but it's ultimately what I need. For that reason, I'm resetting my counter both on this thread and on NoFap as a whole. 1/365
I haven't checked in here because I've been on a skid. Lots of travel and social overdrawing made me crash after a 200+ day streak. Then I had a surgery and had to lay around for a week, which was kind of depressing (and I was chemically off from the medicine I was on). I'm almost a week out fr surgery and ready to be done with excuses. 1/365. Happy 4th, everybody. Looking forward to getting back in this journey with you all.
As with previous times, looks like you're a few days ahead of me. Almost done with taking hydrocodone and laying around most of the day by myself, so I'm ready to get back on this nofap train! Don't let me catch you this time!
I walked that line for awhile on my last streak. Before eventually giving in, it seemed like I was only withholding from technically looking and porn for the sake of the check in on here and not actually getting healthier. I hope you and I both can be truer to our original intent this time around!
So proud of you, man! We've got this! Shoot a text or call any time you're feeling like doing something stupid and I can talk you off the ledge. The trick seems to be to cut off the train of thought before it can go anywhere. If you start entertaining thoughts, it gets harder to stop it very quickly.
The 44th More bliss, more contentment! The world seems to have more color and I mean literally more color. Listening to meditative music also is a great source of inner peace. Why didn't I stop porn sooner??