You're on!! You won't be catching me this time *eye of the tiger blaring in the background* 7/365 (1.9%) - a whole week down
156/365 (for yesterday). I still can't grasp what almost happened. Things have been rough lately. I ended up having an urge that I don't think I have had in over 9 months. I lost all rational thought. It's a good thing my internet was not working. I am still in dangerous I territory. I couldn't reason with myself once I got to that stage. I think it has to do with fluctuating sleep/diet/socializing. My dopamine levels must be out of sync. I literally thought there was no way I could stay sober if I had to deal with an urge like that. Thankfully it's mostly over. I'm scared it will hit again, or that I may just give up.
its ok friend! i cant even start right away , i have few days with no counter ! people who start straight are heros in my eyes!