It's been a good day. I got up at 4 and got some work done that I put off. Spent a little time with some friends and also my sister's family who I love. I helped a neighbor fix her windows then did my pullups.. I also took my 10 minute weekly ice bath and this time I followed it with a hot bath. As hot as I could stand. I feel so relaxed right now that I don't want to do anything but sit.This day without porn I feel a lot more sane. I didnt collapse 100% on this latest and worst in a long time binge. I still did pushups and pullups every day and have been doing cold showers for a few months now. Also a couple other disciplines. I think the fact that I showed even that amount of self care kept me from staying longer and sinking deeper in the pmo pit of despair. I'm not out of the woods yet but I'm commiting right here to staying free today. I'm thankful for everyone here.
Hey my friend, I think that this applies to all of us, every day! Just stay free today is all I have to do. One urge at a time, one fantasy at a time, overcome them one at a time. Adds up to one day at a time; I just need to get through today and do some positive things for myself and treat others well, and it starts to add up to a good life. Thanks for the post my friend, keep it up
The 19th Phew! I survived yesterday. I once again almost reasoned myself to a relapse. I was feeling very lonely last night. The urge to watch porn was so high. I prayed to God at that moment to give me the strength to beat the urges. Then I went to bible.com and considered a bible plan. After that, I meditated while listening to some soothing music. Despite all this, the urges did not completely disappear. I then just decided to sleep. Here I am today! However, once again it seems I will have a battle on my hands. The urges are once again at a grand high! The next thing to do is just to take a cold shower and then plan my day. I also need to get out of the house and socialize.
I failed again just can't understand what's going on with me for last two months I have relapsed many times and also couldn't make a longer streak I think I should take some strict steps to hold onto my streaks This time I will start meditating everyday for at least 15 mins I will try to be very regular to this group from now on Anyone have any suggestion for me? Last thing I can do is starting over again So I am starting again Day 0
I think the most important question u should ask u r self before doing anything is do you really want to do it I should ask to myself weather I really wanna do it or not
Just keep trying ,go to any lengths necessary and if you stumble get right back up as quick as you can. I just went thru that type of thing and many others have too. I believe that as long as we are honestly trying that things will eventually kick in. Youre only truly defeated when you just surrender yourself to the addiction.For me faith in a Higher Power and doing my best to live a life based on spiritual priciples is the key to success with any addiction. Stay in the game brother.