You have no other options but to continue moving forward. You can’t drop out without really betraying yourself. It took you 29 years to get where you are. It will take time to change. Every step you make towards the person you want to be changes your trajectory. Get up and let’s see some digits on that timer!
Checking in. I need to reset my counter, too. I got into a funk one day and I followed a familiar path to hide from the pain. Next time, I'll follow the better path, the one I've created for myself many times. The one I've been on before for over 140 days in a row. (That's why I know I'm going to be all right. )
Caved yesterday. I feel stupid because I know those urges pass and only get stronger if I feed them. I'm optimistic though, 67 days is almost DOUBLE my previous best streak after trying this for almost 3 years, and as long as I don't cave in again, I can get right back where I was. I want that 90!
Wednesday check in. 14 days - that's 2 weeks. Feeling very pleased with myself. Admittedly I was on a family holiday for most of that, but there have been times when I could have secretly looked at P and I didn't. Onwards!
Day 6. Hey friends, this is a positive check in, although I fell last Friday night which was slightly disappointing, all is not lost and I am still on the straight and narrow path. I had one release only and it involved P. I just fell into a moment of weakness and gave into my flesh. God has not condemned me, rather forgiven me graciously and I have made the wise decision not to binge or crawl back into the pit of my carnal desires, which was my previous (stuff up) behaviour. There’s a difference between falling, getting back up, dusting yourself off and continuing to following Jesus when he’s right in front of you, versus falling, digging a pit and camping in sin when Jesus is already a 3 day hike ahead of you. All of us are at different proximity points to Christ, some are 1 metre away from the touch of His garment and some are a few days hike away. We can’t afford to lag far behind, we must take up our Cross and follow Him – preaching to myself also. Proverbs 24:16. It was a one off and I intend to keep it this way knowing what I have come through thus far and what God is doing in my life. Usually the enemy would pummel me with depression, negative thoughts, anxiety, give me a shovel and convince me to get comfortable in my dark pit, however I have not experienced this. I have realised more that God is not looking for flawless perfection, in saying that, we must never abuse his Grace (which is what I have done many times before, just not realising it and being completely blinded by lust and adultery.) He just wants us to make the decision to quickly dust ourselves off and come back to Him after falling. I have come back to the Cross and have repented. I feel I can go long distance again as God has been doing amazing things and is definitely evident in my life. Hope your all remaining strong and stable, Blessings.
The last couple of days have been like night and day compared to Monday. Getting re-engaged here and putting the necessary effort back into my recovery has been the difference. Thanks gents for the support add another 24 hours PMO free.
Nice Work getting right back on track. I think this is so important but also so difficult. Keep going forward!
I look forward to being able to bounce right back if I fall. I think that’s a great sign of progress.