I havent checked in in a week or so and havent pmo'd. I was on a hook up site and deleted my act 3 days ago so i reset my counter. I dont want that . I believe i have to surrender lust in all forms. I find it difficult to even want to but i at least want to want to.The last few days ive been trying to keep in my mind the ideal of healthy sexuality wether it takes the form of a loving relationship or a happy monk mode. One day at a time.
Another day. The hookup site i was on for a few days last week was just as enervating as the porn. Ive always been an all or nothing guy with everything i do. The trick is to put the all in effort to building a better ,freer me. One day at a time