Hard to start over

I relapsed a while back, already wrote about it.

I’ve found it difficult to reboot after being clean about a month. Those old habits creep in a lot easier.

No longer do I run from it, no longer is the urge to not do it overpowering the urge to do it.

I’ve tried rebooting many times over the years and I always lose. This is how it goes, I mess up once and it’s all over.

I guess I just have to get back up and try again. I haven’t done no nut November since my addiction began. Who knows? Maybe I’ll get a head start.