hoarding porn

By deleting everything, you tell yourself and your brain that you're serious about it. That you're not going back.
You really want to quit porn? That means you will never need your porn files again. You will never watch them again.

I also had something else in mind, that is maybe weird:
If I suddenly die, my wife would bring my computer to someone who makes accessible the drive so she can recover photographs and other memories. And there she would also find hundreds of porn files. Gross videos with perverted acts... this is not how I would like to be remembered.

 

I don't hoard porn but I enjoyed bookmarking the 'best' clips per genre...
I can now see that this is another symptom of having an addictive, compulsive personality....
I now try to limit these lists to TV Programmes, Films etc

 

Yep, it is. When you do so, eventually you will tell yourself that the best thing is actually to have an account on a porn site, so you can give "likes" and put those videos to your preferred collection. It's easier than bookmarking the clips. And then you start commenting on videos and eventually you will pay for a "platinum" membership.

 

I know that you are right about deleting it but something just will not allow me to erase the remaining 25%. I also fell off the wagon about 30 minutes ago. But I am committed to get right back on track. I know where i went wrong

 

I understand. For me, and only me, it's when I deleted everything that I truly started recovery. Anything up to that point was lip service.

 

You see for yourself. I'm afraid, sooner or later you will have to delete everything if you want to successfully recover. Maybe you're not ready for giving up yet?

 

I've hoarded porn for years. I knew I would never see those videos and pictures again. No matter how much I had, I always wanted to find something "new" (whatever that meant...). A few months ago, I deleted everything. It took a lot of mental effort to let go of it but now I realize that I lost nothing because I wouldn't watch any of those videos again, anyway.

It didn't keep me from watching porn but, for me, it was a sign that I really wanted to quit and that I had managed to think rationally when it came to porn, something I had never done before. Trying to quit porn with a hard drive full of it is like trying to quit drinking when you have booze at home. Don't make quitting harder than it already is.

 

Ok guys I finally erased it. The only pron I have left is some videos I made with my ex-gf. Im not quite ready to erase those because they are unreplaceable. THose old nostalgic memories.......

 

That is great. I hope you will never regret it. If you want to let something new in your life, you must make some space first.

 

Congratulations! It isn't an easy decision. As for the videos of your old ex, IMO it is not something that can be really compared with the porn videos one downloads from the net and I don't think it's those videos that will make you relapse.

 

I deleted every picture and video of every ex that was sexual in nature.

I doubt any of them would want me to have them anyway.

 

Well done!!

 

Deleted my 'stash' a long time ago. Actually got rid of my mags and DVDs 10+ years ago, before I knew about any of this stuff, I knew it was shameful and I shouldn't have it in my home where people might stumble across it.
I've gone through the process of changing/scrambling my password to various adult sites, I've always just ended up resetting it. Doesn't work for me.

I just checked my bank statements and I haven't spent money on a camsite since 4th January. I used to be a shameful addict, to the point of having debts and maxed out credit cards etc. so this is a major win for me. Before that I used to be into phone lines, which I haven't used since ~2012, and before that strip clubs which I haven't been into in over 10 years.

It's a tragic history, but I am getting better.

 

I too, dealt with hoarding. With work with my therapist, I treated that element of my PA seperately then just consuming porn.

Like any type of hoarder there is an emotional hole we are trying to fill that makes us less able to let go of "stuff". Abandonment, Trauma, Neglect, Abuse, Self-Worth, Loneliness, etc.

Identifying the core issue of why I felt compelled to keep, helped me get rid of it.

Most of my collection was one of a kind, self-made, and absolutely unreproducible. It was very hard to destroy. But until it's gone, it will always be somewhere in your mind, and in that darkest worst most desperate day, when your brain screams for utter relief. The addict brain WILL thrash and claw for it again, like lungs for air. It will then resurface and you WILL relaspe.

Why set yourself up for failure? DESTROY IT!

 

I used to do same shit yo. I was so much invested in it that I bought phone/hard disk of higher capacity so I would never run out of space to hoard porn. Once I started NoFap i deleted all my stash and I’ve never looked back since. I’m 28 days PMO free and I’m gonna keep this streak going. Trust me get rid of all the possible triggers and whenever you feel horny just distract yourself for five ten minutes maybe call a friend or get in a public place where you can’t play with your willy/watch porn and then you’ll be okay when the hornyness dissipates.

 

Great strength sante, best of luck.

stay strong my friend

 

First and only streak. Going strong.

 

I had a huge fantastic life work of porn collection, do you know where it is right now?
at the garbage dump, because I chucked it all away when i found out my PIED was caused by this digital garbage.
If you have to be cured from your porn addiction then you have to toss it ALL away and never ever look back (online).