Forgot to post yesterday, but day 3 today. Worked out again today until I nearly felt like throwing up, took a cold shower. Had an exam as well and went to work. Feel like I got a lot done today.
Current Challenge 1/90 (ends Mar 12) 290/322 Good Days (relapse averge every 10 days - sounds bad but us a huge improvement for me) Day 105 weight training (M, W, F) Day 41 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar Longest streaks 67 then 51 (4 years later) - feeling emotionally good with no urges ... but hey it's day one ... feeling deja for some reason. LOL! WARNING: I said this a while ago but it's probably good to repeat for new fapstronauts. Don't try to fool yourself like I did and try to avoid relapse by looking at porn or porn subs and not cumming. If you start looking at porn or porn subs and allow yourself to get aroused, follow through with orgasm. If you don't, it is really hard on (no pun intended) your reproductive system to get aroused and not cum - the super stimulus of porn is worse than just blue balls from not getting any from a girlfriend on a date. I learned this the hard way and gave myself an epididymal cyst in the process. Luckily went a away on it's own after a few weeks. Had to get an ultra sound done on it though to make sure what it was as it was painful. Though I am not good at this advice myself, best to avoid any artificial stimulation all together when doing a reboot.
Day 48: Been rough this past week. Urges and temptation at every turn. Been feeling like I can think clearer though and see things for what they are. Onwards and upwards and restored.
I strongly believe my POIS is result of acethylcholine deficiency which has been going on for years. I have become unable to learn anything, let alone concentrate. My imagination and creativity is very poor. Also I used to be good at math and logic, but now I suck. Orgasm apparently greatly decreases these levels in brain indefinitely postponing the rebalancing progress. I believe this is why nofap reboot is necessary for most with similar symptoms. Thought I should share my findings.
Day 40! Yesterday I went to a nude sauna, which was a great reminder that there's nothing inherently sexual about nude bodies: a pair of bare breasts does not lead to arousal in itself, so grabbing my dick whenever I see one online makes absolutely not the slightest sense at all. Also, I've started this additional challenge: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/pass-the-mic-mindful-internet-challenge.260699/ to try to address my underlying urge to use the internet as a distraction from boredom and uncomfortable feelings, which is clearly at the root of my porn addiction. You're all welcome to join!
47/90 A tough day yesterday. It was a truly challenging few moments but I got through that. I'm grateful for my decision now. I also think I solved the death grip problem. Sensitivity is quite good. After completing the hard mode, the test with girl follows.