Can you reset my rank? I don't want it to stay at rank12 on this last journey Thanks a lot dude Long Live the French Revolutionaries !
Check In Day I , It was great but still have some work to finish I'm pretty pissed off due to the relapse of yesterday
The restraint of pleasuring myself to digital material makes me feel like my real self more and more as the days pass. I am a 100% believer in this lifestyle... I feel alive today.
Right now I'm in the "I can't comprehend how could I have ever been compelled to do something as stupid as watching porn" phase. I hope it lasts at least a few days. I'm tired of fighting rationalizations generated by my addicted self.
Son of a....... Well I feel dumb.... I felt great yesterday.... Today I woke up and was browsing social media and saw a picture of an attractive lady, touched myself for a second, then next you thing you know I am stroking to a porn video.. After watching for like a minute and 30 seconds I stop myself like WTF AM I DOING?!?!?!.... Well I think edging is bad for you so I step away for like 15 minutes to clear out the digital stimuli aspect of what happened. Then focusing explicitly on the physical feeling I am providing to myself with no external stimulation, I finish the job. I hear edging creates long term dopamine release that can actually cause more damage than just finishing, but I wanted to finish in the real physical world and not aided by mental fantasies or digital stimulation..... that being said... this was a relapse. I still stand by my statements yesterday. This lifestyle is the one for me. Just another bump in the road. I am resetting my counters and moving forward and not giving up. Shit, if you guys feel like how I feel about this addiction, I don't think giving up is ever an option. My sexual experiences with females have been destroyed because of bad mental processes about sex. When I am using I am a shell of a man. We have all had a slight taste of what it is to be our true selves and once you get a taste, you cant forget about it...
@⏳⏳⏳ Yeah you got to keep reminding yourself about what would PMO Lead to , at least that works for me We can do this Day 4 CheckIn
Good question.. probably taking a break from social media is a good idea. I put blockers on porn sites to create obstacles... And probably getting out of bed immediately instead of playing around on my phone in the morning would be a good strategy... Thanks for making me think about this