Let's do this...again!

Here I go again.

I completed the 90 day NoPMO Challenge last year, breaking it by having (20 seconds haha) sex with a girl. After that I masturbated maybe once every 1-3 weeks and had sex sometimes. I could feel the energy gained from the successfully completed 90 days NoPMO slowly fade away, not completely though. After the 90 days I felt ALL the superpower, regarding working out, women, focus etc. It was awesome!

I could feel myself slipping back into old habits especially when it comes to drinking alcohol and isolating myself from other people. It was definitely not as bad as before the challenge, but not as good a during.

Today is my 14th day into my "new" NoPMO challenge and, well, I can feel all the benefits again, just not as strong.

I am very interested if this time will be different from the last time.

Since I know what's coming at me, I reckon this streak I will be more able to concentrate on other things/benefits so I will try to keep you updated.

Hang in there guys, it's worth it!

 

Day 16

The longest I've gone without O since my last 90-day-streak was about 3 weeks. I can't really tell how I felt during that streak since I was just out of my 90 days reboot.

I am now 16 days in my new streak and I can tell you that I feel great. Not hyped, no superpowers, just very happy and quite content. There are no urges to masturbate, but I'd really like to have sex with a women I like.

The good thing this time is that, unlike the first time, I haven't watched porn for more than 6 months now. The only O's I had after my first streak were just because of M without P or when I had sex, so I can tell that I am no longer addicted to porn and don't even feel the slightest urge to visit one of these websites again.

 

So today is 20 days.

I was out with some friends yesterday and drinking and stuff.

I really enjoyed myself. Hangover today is really bad, having massive cravings. I know I will feel bad when I O today, so I try to stay strong.

Everytime I drink the next day is really bad regarding cravings. Alcohol is the enemy, so confused.

 

It's 23 days now and just like last time the 21/22 day mark was definitely the hardest. Had some serious erections during the night, was very aggressive and just all in all very irritable.

Today I already feel a lot calmer than the previous weeks.

 

Today is day 26.

I had my first wet dream this streak. It felt really weird because I did not really dream about sex. Well, I did for maybe a split second, but then I already wet my pants. My previous sex wet dreams were always associated with a prolonged erotic dream about me having sex with a women. This time not really, though.

Strangely enough I also had a really great and deep meditation the evening before the wet dream, maybe this goes hand in hand, who knows.

 

It's exactly 4 weeks into my new streak today. Since my wet dream 3 days ago I am experiencing flatline. Not really much to tell. But I feel as calm as I've never felt before. Literally nothing can get me nervous, but neither excited. Since I have been studying for exams for one month this comes as no surprise, there wasn't anything exciting happening lol.

 

5 weeks today. I haven't really had any urges, flatline is slowly declining.

I can definitely say that this streak is a lot easier than my first one. You really ge used to not PMO, it really all comes down to habit.

 

Day 40

In 5 days there'll be halftime. I am stillnot having any urges. Also, I realized that in May this year I will not have watched porn for 12 months. I still masturbated, though, but I don't want to go back to pornography.

 

Day 44

I had another wet dream last night. The last wet dream I had was 18 days ago. So far, I am having definitely more wet dreams than during my first 90 day noPMO challenge.

Also, I did not have any erotic dream previous the ejaculation. in fact, I did not even wake up during ejaculation. I woke up after with wet pants without remembering anything, which was a weird feeling to be honest haha

 

Day 45 - HALFTIME

I am experiencing really strong urges. Likely because of the wet dream 2 nights ago. But still going strong!

 

Day 49

Urges are still strong but getting weaker day by day.

Chaser effect after wet dream is real I guess.

 

Day 53

Urges got really strong during the last few days.

So I decided to donwload tinder. End of story, I got laid this noon and had another date for a cup of tea in the evening where nothing happened (fortunately). It feels weird because I actually really dislike tinder since it's no different to PMO in my opinion: you get rewarded for little to no effort.

But anyway: Doesn't matter, had sex.

 

Day 54

Had Sex again this night with another girl from tinder. I was and am still/again super horny. My balls even hurt really bad, like blue balls. Also, I am having trouble peeing?! is that normal?

Question to anyone reading (hope you know the answer because I don't): Why do you get blue balls after emptying them 2 days in a row after 53 days of FoFap and approx. 2-3 weeks after last wet dream? Is this behaviour of one's body normal, like similar bodily response after a relaps with PMO?